Next week is my last week of school. I get out May 25. I am ambivalent about this. While I naturally am happy to escape the hellish prison that is my school, I have the feeling that my summer might be less than pleasant. First (and this is unhappy to think of, but it's true) it's my last real summer, because after senior year is done I'll be packing off to whatever college is stupid enough to accept me. Second, if I don't get my license by July 1st, I'm in serious trouble (because that's when the graduated license takes effect), so I'll have to spend most of the first half of summer driving every day...and I know there are people who cry "I love driving!" but I don't. I am not good at it. But one must do what one must.
Thirdly, I fear that I am going to get a C for the semester in Chemistry. This is Very Bad. I do not know what my parents will do if it happens. I suppose I'll have to brush up on my begging for mercy skills.
Fourth, I must take the ACT again. I'll likely have to take the SAT a second time as well, but I haven't received my scores from my first shot yet.
Fifth, I'll actually have to decide which colleges to apply to. I think I'll go the safe route and apply to a whole bunch and go with whoever accepts me. I'm thinking now that I'll apply to colleges here, possibly to Penn State (where del is), and maybe even some colleges in California (preferably in the uh, San Jose area.. XD). I'm not looking for anything prestigious, even though I know that's what my parents would prefer. Money is the biggest issue, really, even trumping location. I'm taking it as a given now that I'll have to get a job and work through college, but I don't mind if I spend most of my time either studying or working, because it's not like I intend to get out much.
I find my academic situation to be mildly depressing, because I'm not below average, nor am I even average. What I am (my GPA, here, is 3.5, but weighted on a scale that counts A's as 90-100 it would be much higher) is marginally above average. Same for my current ACT score--the national average is a 21, my score was a 27 (want to kick it up to at least a 30). So I'm not stupid, by the standards, but I'm not a genius-child either (like Kai over there, with her fancy-schmancy 35 ;P).
I feel a lot like I'm only smart enough to know how much of an idiot I really am.
Thirdly, I fear that I am going to get a C for the semester in Chemistry. This is Very Bad. I do not know what my parents will do if it happens. I suppose I'll have to brush up on my begging for mercy skills.
Fourth, I must take the ACT again. I'll likely have to take the SAT a second time as well, but I haven't received my scores from my first shot yet.
Fifth, I'll actually have to decide which colleges to apply to. I think I'll go the safe route and apply to a whole bunch and go with whoever accepts me. I'm thinking now that I'll apply to colleges here, possibly to Penn State (where del is), and maybe even some colleges in California (preferably in the uh, San Jose area.. XD). I'm not looking for anything prestigious, even though I know that's what my parents would prefer. Money is the biggest issue, really, even trumping location. I'm taking it as a given now that I'll have to get a job and work through college, but I don't mind if I spend most of my time either studying or working, because it's not like I intend to get out much.
I find my academic situation to be mildly depressing, because I'm not below average, nor am I even average. What I am (my GPA, here, is 3.5, but weighted on a scale that counts A's as 90-100 it would be much higher) is marginally above average. Same for my current ACT score--the national average is a 21, my score was a 27 (want to kick it up to at least a 30). So I'm not stupid, by the standards, but I'm not a genius-child either (like Kai over there, with her fancy-schmancy 35 ;P).
I feel a lot like I'm only smart enough to know how much of an idiot I really am.
posted by lyn at
5/20/2001 08:23:00 AM
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