Mom and Dad took my C for Physics well. Scarily well. I guess they realize that everything is getting to be sort of moot now. I handed in all the extraneous parts of my Rhodes app--recommendations from teachers and the counselor--today (that is to say, I gave them what they need in order to write those recommendations), so now all that's left is the actual application and the (gulp) essay. I hope to God that I'm accepted to this school. I don't care if I have to get a job AND do work-study. I am a little nervous, though, because I'm afraid for two things. First, I'm afraid that there won't be anyone like me there and by that I don't mean people who aren't into anime/fantasy/other geeky things (no doubt Rhodes is crawling with geeks), I mean people who write like I do. I picked up a copy of their lit mag, and the short stories in it were nothing like the stuff I write. It's not neccessarily that they were so much better (although a few of them were excellent, way above me), they just dealt with very different topics than I like to deal with--more realistic fiction, mostly humorless kind of thing. I could write that if I tried--I have--but that's not what I really like. So I fear.

Second, I'm afraid that I'll be in with a bunch of people who are overachieving hardworkers, and while I know I can and do work hard when I have to, it's not a frame of mind I'm usually in (usually I am deterred by procrastination). So I'm worried I'll be amongst all these highly competent people who get everything done weeks before the deadline (or even days, as opposed to the night before, like I usually do) and that I will feel very stupid and outclassed. This is rather minor compared to the first fear, but it could still make things unpleasant. I don't know, I could just be being irrational, but.. -__-