::languishes in boredom and loneliness:: Unfortunately there are only two people that I have the guts to call, and one of them's not home, and the other is banned from phone calls. I'm too afraid to call up anyone else I know for idle chatter...

Lately I've been considering the pros and cons of becoming a hermit, which I feel I'll likely grow up to be. Here's what I've come up with:

Pro: No friends means less people to worry about.
Con: No friends means less people to worry about you.
Pro: If you're a hermit, you don't get jealous when your non-existent friends go out together and leave you, lonely, bored and unhappy at your computer, thinking this crap up. =P
Con: Um. There's no con for that.
Pro: No one to tell you that you're stupid or annoying.
Con: None for that either. I would say 'No one to praise you' but my friends don't praise me much. =P
Pro: Less people to buy gifts for.
Con: Less people to buy gifts for you. (although that's not a huge con, since I'm not at all materialistic and consider gifts as a mere show of appreciation as opposed to a rigid requirement.. a nice picture is gift enough for me, unless it's like my birthday or something..but I digress)
Pro: Less people to depend on you.
Con: Less people for you to depend on.
Pro: Less stress.
Con: Less laughter.
Pro: Less people to judge everything you do and use it as an excuse to not invite you places. =P
Con: None there either.
Pro: Less distractions.
Con: Lack of any human contact for an extended period of time may drive you mad.

Hm... strictly speaking the pros outweigh the cons... but I think that a lot of the pros are more important than the cons... so maybe I should keep struggling to be social. It's a bit difficult with friends like mine, though... The one that's not home would not, I think, go to places with only me, and the only other person I could invite would be the one who's not allowed phone calls (and who, incidentally, isn't allowed to do much else). Then there's two friends at school, one of whom I have known forever but haven't anything in common with, at all--we're even more different than the one who's not home (at least her and I share interests if not personality traits, I don't even share interests with this person). Person B I share interests with only on a surface level: she likes to write poetry and she does art, but she ONLY writes poetry and her art isn't cartoons--it's the kind of stuff one does in AP art (a class which she's a part of). Additionally she tells me she's sick of both and intends to pursue law or ministry in college. Then there's Ali and Laris, whom I love, and whom I share both interests and personality traits, and who I know would probably not be too upset about me asking them to do things, but they're Busy Adults and so I'm afraid to do this.

I'm very afraid to ask people to do things with me in general, because I fear the terrible sting of rejection. I know that usually if a person doesn't want to go somewhere with you it's not because they secretly would rather have a root canal (neccessarily...), but I'm paranoid so my brain would always think that. -_- All I have the strength to ask about are movies, and even then my chances are slim because the only friend I can ask with any confidence doesn't like a lot of movies.