Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday an' stuff. Now I'll explain.

The day started out poorly. I guess that should have been a sign or something. I did horribly--I mean.. horribly... on my math test. Seriously. Bad. If I want a B (which I do, because if I get a C I will feel so awful and guilty because my parents have been so nice and good to me today and I really want them to be proud of me but argh and anyway) I have to not do this again on the next test. The thing is that my daily average is like, 97 percent, and then I fail the test. Totally incongruous numbers, no? And when I say fail, I don't mean, a C. I mean fail. Spectular failure. So that was upsetting. Then I realized I had all these tests today that I had not at all prepared for. I took the English and French tests, but midway through fifth I just felt so awful (sick with worry over the Physics test, just plain sick, unhappy about the day in general) that I decided, you know what, I'm going home.

I think I may have tallied three absences now in French, so I may regret doing this if I get very sick again and want to skip another day (more than 3 absences as a senior means you're not exempt from your exam), but um... we'll see I guess. I don't really care about missing Physics--I know I have to take that exam. I'm mainly worried about what I was worried about last time--getting two C's on my report card (C in Physics and C in Adv. Alg and Trig), which would be mind-bendingly awful. Luckily I got a B in Adv. Alg and Trig barely last time, though I did get a C in Physics (84)... I hate Physics so goddamn much. I don't think it's even possible to comprehend how much I loathe that class. It has caused me more pain and stress than any other class I have taken, ever, and it's because the teacher is a moron. I'm also a moron, which is why her being a moron is a problem. =P I don't know.. I'm torn because I just.. I don't care. And I can't make myself care. Guilt is my only motivation--the guilt that comes with getting grades you know your parents will disapprove of. Guilt and the fear of punishment. Not exactly the purest of intentions. I DO care about AP English though. That's probably the only class I really care about, which is why I was devastated earlier when I did very poorly on an in-class (I usually make perfect scores and I did terribly on the last one.. on Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man.. hated that book. n_n). Made me sad.

But anyway.. so.. the day was bad. But then I got home, and made that little misery entry below this one, and then I started to play Final Fantasy X to take my mind off my unhappiness. Then Emiko called and Alicia called and they both came over.. and Alicia brought me pretty flowers and Emiko brought me a nice teddy bear and notebooks and a sketchpad (I luv notebooks. I really do. it's kind of sad, really -_-). Then we kind of sat and talked fer a while and then we all went to Bola Pasta with my brother and his friends, Matt Thesing and Matt Taylor, along with my parents of course... that was fun. Then we came back here, then we went to Starbucks and then Borders and I bought myself Rayearth 6 (although I need Rayearth 5 n_n) and the day just basically got a lot better after Alicia and Emiko showed up.

My eyes burn now though. Eugh.

But.. yes.. thank you. I sincerely appreciate the happy birthdays and those who IM'ed me to say so (Sky and the lovely Vera) and on their blogs.