This is my newest picture... it's Donovan/Ireul from the Claris Project when he was a widdle angelboy and had glasses. :B; I know you all like my pointillism shading :B;

I know that I'm really not very good at art... I'm not an artist by any means, and I rip blatantly off Kaori Yuki's style. But I enjoy drawing; it's a nice release of tension, and it gives people better visual representation of my characters. And I do try to make my pictures look as nice as I can, even though I don't have any artistic talent, visually. :3;;;

Well, I decided against it...Kai reminded me that friends and family could wander along to Kurai, and while it's likely they wouldn't care or be computer-literate enough to figure out the current navigation style, they definitely would not miss my whiny ramblings..which I don't really want them reading.

But I have another problem.. x__x; I don't know what to do about Sugeo. As you may or may not have noticed, most none of the linked images work, cos of Tripod's sudden decision to go non-offsite linking. I don't particularly want to move it either to tripod or geocities, because I'd have to move the _whole thing_ there... x__x; The whole folder is about 6MB, which is not HUUUUGE, but it's big enough to bother me (I'm using a lot of my space already :B;;; Clarity and Claris chomp down a whole lot of my space, even with their images hosted elsewhere). Does anyone know of a ad-free servicelet? Or something? x__x;;

I'm seriously considering moving this blog to kurai's front page...like how malloreigh over there does it. :3 Good idea, bad idea?

According to the alignment thing, I'm Neutral Good... and Sean is Chaotic Evil. XD XD

::sings:: I wear my sunglasses at night so I can keep track of visions in my eyes~

::reading Dora's Three 'O Clock story...but her blog seems to have disappeared..?? ;_;::

My kitty is sitting on the windowsill ;__; I can't stand the cuteness ;_;

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'Allo, Gwen. :3 I have read you ever since the business with Kit (Kitbug, I wish you would stop taking your sites down ;__;), but I think you are a fine person.

I'm sorry the review I gave you was so short, Jaimie-J.... XD; But the intelligent chick person said pretty much what I wanted to say. On a somewhat related subject, while I enjoy the pairing of Zim and Dib, I find the thought of them doing anything even remotely, er, sexual, to be rather gross, because they are both so damn tiny. :B; It just seems wrong on a lot of levels. :B;;; Still, I love to watch them interact. I love how they are both righteously maniacal, though Dib moreso than Zim. Dib thinks he's saving the world, Zim just thinks he's impressing & working for the glory of his home planet. Poor deluded babies. :B I think I should make a section on my links page for Zim sites... yours will be at the top, of course XD

Carolyn, I am glad that you are enjoying the Doom Song. :B

Several people have new-ish layouts, such as Dora and Alanna and Nicholefluff, and they are all very pretty. Nichole, CC roxxors. :B I'm nearing the end of my second run-through. Vera's 'trendy' blog makeover looks nice too XD XD

Ali has a SaGa Frontier fic that she is submitting to RPGamer and it is very beautiful even though I do not understand it very well because I have never played the game. XD;

Del's coolness expands exponentially by the day: she burned pour moi (and for herself :3) the Claris soundtrack listed below and even drew a cover picture thing for it. I eagerly await its arrival. :B

::gives Charis love::

::gives Z love also :B::

I have not been able to access krush.org for a very long time and thus am wondering what is going on with the Donna.

Genki said dear sweet Metatron XD Hahaha XD Genki, you should take fotos of your ferret. I love ferrets. :3

DRACO: ... ::glare::

Katfluff, enjoy your prom. :B

...if you were not responded to here, it's cos I've responded to you lately or because I've talked to you lately, or because you have not done or said anything that I think you want me answering to. :B;;
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Blah, blah, I took things the wrong way and was a bitch today .__.; (wow, more rhyming...)

We had an assembly today concerning Prom Promise which is this thing where the participants promise not to drink or do drugs or anything equally fucking moronic on prom night. It was easy for me to make this promise because I never do any of those things anyway, and to be honest I have a hard time comprehending people who would willingly climb behind the wheel of the car even though they know they've been drinking (though, it shouldn't be, since it impairs your judgment and all...but still)...anyway.. I'm a pretty emotional sort, and I was crying a little at the end, both for the mother who spoke about her and (this is going to sound dorky, but it's true -_-) out of worry for my brother. My brother is attending the prom tomorrow and the people who are driving are horrible drivers even when sober. Most people might think it's crazy to worry about him, but you know...that boy whose mother spoke, he and his two friends went to this school. All three of them were killed, while riding their bikes, by some complete and utter asshole who was driving drunk. The description of the scene she gave us was horrible, and while we were riding home, Bryan made a very insensitive remark, saying the scene was not awful but offal. ><

But I was very bitchy too, and I realized my bitchiness after I'd spoken it, but the person to whom I was bitchy does not accept apologies so it was useless anyway. But I still feel bad, because the person is my friend, and one of my best friends, even though I get ragingly angry at her on average of once or twice a day.

I was also very stupid today: I had forgotten that we were supposed to bring in a photo and some information on a famous non-conformist for English, a very EASY assignment, and thus got myself a bloody 0/25. ::bangs head on wall repeatedly:: My friend Emiko also forgot this, so at least I had company in my misery, but jeeez. x__x I HATE making zeroes, no matter how many points it's out of. Especially zeroes that could have easily been avoided if I weren't so damn lame. On the bright side I scored a 94 on the essay portion of our test (don't know about the bubble in bit yet), which was very vindicating for me. :3

Also on the bright side of today: the prom promise thing got me out of History, so I didn't have to take my test or turn in my (unfinished .__.;) Section Reviews, I figured out why my calculator kept giving me the wrong answers and thusly why I failed the last quiz (I've already moaned and angsted to myself about that, now I must make certain it NEVER EVER HAPPENS AGAIN), and my Chemistry teacher gave us PIZZA during class (Papa John's. Roxxor).

However I float in uncertainty about this whole final grading period, especially since my last markings were so sexy that now my parents expectations have fluttered unfortunately upwards. >P The lowest grade I scored was a 93 (in Algebra II..god damn that class) and I also scored a 98 in Chemistry (a miracle of God, I assure you)--the rest was like 97, 100, 101 (I only have five classes because my sixth period is a study hall). I usually make these sorts of grades in all my classes but Algebra II and Chemistry, in which I (if I'm lucky) make high end B's, or (if I'm not lucky) low end B's. Once I was terribly unlucky and scored an 85 in Chemistry *__* (which by some people's scales is a B, but it's a C by ours).

Some of you who have this magical alternative scale may be wondering what ours is, so let me tell you how it goes.
94-100 = A
86-93 = B
77-85 = C
76-70 = D
69-0 = F

If my school was (or were? x__x was and were is the only grammatical construction I have Issues with...) equipped with a grading system like 90-100 = A and so on, I would make straight A's much more often. As it stands, I hardly EVER do. .__.

Look, people. Being a writer is not just about writing. It's about putting yourself out there and getting people to notice you and look at you and read you. It takes a lot of fucking work to do that, and the way that you do that online (or at least, the way I do it) is by making friends, posting at places, and leaving traces of yourself everywhere you possibly can. And that's what I did, for a very long time, and I still do it, though not as often and generally not as much.

Besides that, it's about dedication, and it's about focus and it's about not giving up no matter how bad you feel and no matter what some moron tells you about your work. You don't have inspiration? Too bad. Cry me a fucking river and get some. Yes, it's true, that sometimes inspiration strikes you divinely when you don't even expect it, and that's wonderful and that's beautiful, but a lot of the time all you can do is sit down and just write whatever's there. And if nothing's there, then you have to think about it and gnaw on it until it gets there, or it's not going to get done. And later you can go back and rewrite it when you do have inspiration, or you can show it to people who'll give you inspiration, and everything will be OK. The point is that you've got to keep going and you've got to keep your focus. I learned this only recently and have been putting into practice since then. Writing is enjoyable, yes. I love writing. But it's WORK, and that's just all there is to it. It's hard work to sit there and type up all I've hand written, editing as I go, and then post it into an html file and edit it again. Then I upload it and show whoever's on, and if they find a glaring mistake (which they often do) I edit some more. Then, weeks or months later, I EDIT IT AGAIN (I'm in the process of doing this with Clarity's beginnings, as a matter of fact).

I'm not saying I'm the pristine example of a good writer, no way, I'm not even saying I'm good. But damned if I don't work and I don't try and I don't do everything I can to get my stories done and get them read. I write almost every day, probably sometimes at the expense of a higher A in my classes (.__.;;), but you know, it gets done. And that's what you've got to do (get it done, not slack off in class XD;) and if you don't want to do it, that's dandy. But don't make ME feel guilty because I do.

Human beings are the only animals that cry real tears under stress.

I am human to the core.

Del asked what a soundtrack of The Claris Project would be like, so I made up a list as quick as I could (wasn't too hard, because I'd wanted to and thought about this a lot already^^;):
1. Today - Poe (this is what I consider the theme to part 1)
2. Megalomaniacal - KMFDM
3. Hanging by a Moment - Lifehouse
4. Invincible - Pat Benatar
5. When Worlds Collide - Powerman 5000(I consider this like a theme to Part II)
6. Smack my Bitch Up - Prodigy
7. Goodbye - Gravity Kills
8. He Decides - Ace of Base
9. Fire Escape - Fastball
10. Now You Know - Powderburn
11. All for You - Sister Hazel
12. It's The End of the World As We Know It - R.E.M.
13. I'll Be - Edwin McCain
14. Counting Blue Cars - Dishwala
15. Sunday Bloody Sunday - U2

Marvel at my sprawling musical tastes *__* (yes, I like Ace of Base. Bite me :B;)
I would explain the selection for each song, but hopefully if you've heard them you see the correlation..besides I don't think anyone really cares. ^^;; You can also tell that I think When Worlds Collide really fits, because it's the title of the second half. Woo :B I know at least that Gabi-bug, when we still talked a lot, agree with choice #1 ^^;

Also I know that everyone says that Invincible makes them think of Gundam Wing, and it does for me too, but I think it also fits for Claris. ^^; I would also add the Doom Song because Sean has taken to humming it, but it does not really fit. :B;

Now you, too, can enjoy the Doom Song :3 (if you haven't already :B) Worry not, it's only 25 seconds, so it's very small, in terms of MP3s, that is.

I came to blog because I did not do so yesterday, and have found that I have nothing much to say...

I'm a poet and I don't know it. :3

Speaking of poets, I'm going to have read some of my BS at a poetry reading Thursday night.. Not Looking Forward to it... .__.;

::getting down to an awesome remix of the Invader Zim theme, provided graciously by Del 'neechan:: She also gave me the MP3 of The Doom Song, which I had never heard in full before.. XD XD I love GIR :B

Everybody loves Laura. :B