There's nothing fragile around here that I can break without getting into trouble, so I'm just mangling empty soda cans to release frustration. Ripping apart aluminum isn't quite as satisfying as shattering glass, but it works.

No, I'm not mad at anyone, except myself. I fucking hate action scenes. They look so cool in my head but I can never get it to translate into paper. ARRGGHH!!!

Wow, I'm in a really bad mood.

::reread some JTHM last night:: I need to work the 'Oh my God, it's God!' quote into Claris somewhere.

You know, I often think I'm kind of a bitchy person, but after reading through these I feel like a saint.

My senior pictures are done but we haven't picked them up yet... I need also to get my summer reading books.

I'll scan the pictures when we get them, although I'll look nicer in these pictures than I normally would because I'll have makeup on and no glasses. Mom always makes me take off my glasses for photographs. :\

The more I think about it, the more I want to attend Rhodes. Besides the fact that the campus is absolutely beautiful (all the buildings are done in a Gothic sort of style, with ivy climbing up multi-colored bricks and archways), it seems like a place where I might fit in. Small classes, friendly professors, nice students. Doubtless I'll run into some of that intellectual snobbery that I so despise, but that kind of thing is a given at a place like Rhodes. You may be wondering how I define intellectual snobbery (or you may just be wondering why I'm talking about something as boring as what college I want to attend as opposed to typing up Claris).

Regardless, I think of it thusly--an intellectual snob is a person who judges another person based entirely on his or her academic standing. Grades, test scores, class rank, whatever you can think of to define a person's academic career. The higher the numbers (or in terms of class rank, the lower), the better. I hate this. A person's worth is not determined by a number on a piece of a paper or a score on a report card. Half the time those things don't even properly determine real intelligence! Anyone who works hard can make good grades. You don't have to be smart to do well in school, you just have to be focused. I hate it when people think they're better than everyone else just because they did well on a test or in a class. I'm not trying to disparage achievement here, but I'm sure you all know what I mean. That person who does well in everything and feels the need to flaunt it, or just simply speaks as if the entire population is a worm beneath his feet because their scores aren't perfect. There's a boy at our school who is number one in the class and makes phenomenal grades, besides being involved in a myriad of extracurricular activities. But he is one of the nicest people ever. He never acts like he's better, he never makes people with lesser grades feel stupid. His type is not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the type who sneers at people with lower GPAs and uses report cards as a measuring stick of human worth. There are a lot of those at my school, and I want to smack them in the face every time I pass them in the hallway.

Of course, this may just be bitterness. I only have a 3.5/4.0 G.P.A. after all.

I'm hopping around anime websites (mostly Angel Sanctuary) en francais... Since the whole manga has been translated and published over there, there's a lot of fansites. Naturellement (bet I spelled that wrong XD), there's lots of words I don't understand, but I'm getting the jist pretty well... which is good, because I'm continuing my French studies this year.

Oh, man, I love the SMC's review of Final Fantasy. XD

I didn't get anything done today, except for some Jumi results... I didn't even make a little KS update, although the page showed up, happily. After the yardwork I just sort of sat around being hot and tired, and then ma famille went out to eat and then it was late...

I have to go over to our other house in a few minutes and rake... God I hate yardwork.

And no, I don't have two houses. The other house is the one we moved out of, but we didn't sell it, we're just renting it. Which means that every time the old renters leave, we have to go over and clean up the house for the new renters. Bllargh.

I want to buy Vera's book.. .__. And I actually have $3, I just don't have a credit card .__.

Yes, Tengu... hee hee.. XD

Tengu, I like the creetchur. :3 And I get the reference! XD

I am tempted to write a CLAMP-related fic just to see if I could get into this. I'm serious. If any of you readers out there can think of a good premise for a Magic Knight Rayearth or a Card Captor Sakura fic--whatever it may be--tell me and I will write it. (no, I don't think I'll write X. I'm not really a huge fan of X, despite how much I love stories of Earth's impending doom o_o;)

Well, here I am, putting my shoes on to go sit in a car for three and a half hours... Hoping/praying that mom does not decide to spend the night down there, the earliest I'll be home is 5, the latest as late as 9 or 10 >__>

Gah, I suck! I need to change Kit's link. o__o The picture on that layout is prettyful.

Do I Have to Say the Words--Bryan Adams

Rescue me from the mire
Whisper words of desire
Rescue me - darling rescue me

With your arms open wide
Want you here by my side
Come to me - darling rescue me
When this world's closing in
There's no need to pretend
Set me free - darling rescue me

I don't wanna let you go
So I'm standing in your way
I never needed anyone like I'm needing you
today

Do I have to say the words?
Do I have to tell the truth?
Do I have to shout it out?
Do I have to say a prayer?
Must I prove to you - how good we are
together?
Do I have to say the words?

Rescue me from despair
Tell me you will be there
Help me please - darling rescue me

Every dream that we share
Every cross that we bear
Can't you see - darling rescue me

I don't wanna let you go
So I'm standing in your way
I never needed anyone like I'm needing you
today

Do I have to say the words?
Do I have to tell the truth?
Do I have to shout it out?
Do I have to say a prayer?
Must I prove to you - how good we are
together?
Do I have to say the words?

This song always gets to me, for some reason.

One last thing before I hop to bed... Hello Panda looks real good, Jaimie-J.. I'll link it next time I do the link updating thang x_X

Mi board has slowed down a little bit but it's still a cool place to be. I think I'm going to post a whole bunch of crazy topics tomorrow in order to keep good on my promise to incite talk.
:3;

I actually don't have an address book.. so if I ever got one of those lovely viruses that fires off emails to everyone in your address book, it wouldn't have anywhere to go after me. I have all the email addresses I really need/want memorized. ^_^;

Sw33t... I found a way to get into my cherrycoma mail, so all is not lost. :3 I had 13 new messages, 10 of which were spam and 1 of which pertained to SBness. I think I actually got that virus that's been talked about--someone sent me an email titled 'new word document' that was 205K o_o You better believe I deleted that sucker. :B; The other two emails were the kind of emails that make my writing worth it--feedback mails. One was about Clarity, from the form, it was short, but the girl said she'd spent 8 hours of her life reading the story and was glad of it, which is always nice, and the other was about Claris. So yes. All is well.

Arrgh.. AIM keeps performing illegal operations. I don't know why it does this. .__. I want a new computer.

The only emails with attachments that I get are those lovely fanart emails. Sometimes people also send me their stories, mistakenly believing my opinion to be worth something, but they tend to contact me first. I'm an extremely paranoid person, both online and off. But I don't believe that image files--like .bmp and .jpg and .gif can carry viruses. The worst kinds of viruses come with exe files, really, and some pretty bad ones--macros--come with certain document files also. But pictures can't be infected with a virus as far as I know.

Pfoo... it's 8:30 and neither Sally nor Kai are on. I think I may get off early tonight... I am eager to return to Claris production, especially now that I've figured out some important things about Donovan/Ireul's history.

My cherrycoma mail is still not working. .__. I hope that it comes back eventually, or I'll have to tell everyone to resend their SB apps if they want on the list. That would be a pain in the ass for everyone. :\

I just recalled that I haven't gotten my summer reading books yet... I hope my parents don't make me use this money to buy them; those books are school expenses and none of the three are anything I really want to read. >__>

Woohoo! The people I petsat for gave me 80 bucks!! It's in check form, but still..dude! 80 dollars!! This TOTALLY KICKS ASS!!

Some of you, especially the richer folks out there, may be thinking 'Pfft. That is chump change, honey, relax.' But hear me, here. I do yardwork, I clean my room, I empty the dishwasher, I do basically whatever my parents say. I get no allowance. All my money, really, comes from gifts at holidays/birthdays, and half of that is usually squirreled away in a savings account I can't touch. So to have money, real money, that I earned, that belongs totally to me--that fucking rocks. MINE DAMMIT! And I'm not putting ANY OF IT in that savings account! ::huggles her check:: Now... what to buy... *__*;

Nichole has a sexy new layout that I hadn't commented on before, so I'm commenting on it now...as does Blink. :B

I need to work on Claris, and also draw the next Karma page... also we have company coming today. Two girls and their mom, mom's friends. I intend to be polite, but mostly ignore them. :3; On the day that they leave I have to drive down to Jackson, MS to visit Millsaps College. Not looking forward to it.

But before I do anything, I need to eat.. can't wage war on an empty stomach! (you get a muffin if you know where that quote is from)

I enjoyed the Rugrats special, Jaimie-J. :B I never really liked any of them but Chuckie, though, because he's a paranoid neurotic like me. XD

My cats need to realize that my hair is not edible.. x__x

Grr.. I do not like addr.com's new design thing. I can't change my mail forwards. >__> Anyway, my new address is lyn_straine@nervouswreck.co.uk, so if you've something you want to say, send it there. But be sure to delete the bit that says 'remove this part' before you do. XP; lyn@kurai.com still forwards to the old address until addr gets back to me on WTF is going on. >__>