People with Ultros obsessions are weird, yo. Or at least, they are when they hate on my Vincent. =P

Wooo, I'm typing chapter 11, but my computer has been restored with sound...so I've been downloading songs like crazy. XD This one, 'obsession' (by an 80's band called animotion) is too Reve for words:

You are an obsession
I cannot sleep I am a possession unopened at your feet
There is no balance, no equality
Be still I will not accept defeat

I feed you and drink you by day and by night
I need you, I need you by sun and candlelight
You protest you want to leave
Stay there's no alternative
Your face appears again I see the beauty there but I see danger
Stranger beware of circumstance in your dreams
Your obsession is not what it seems

My fantasy has turned to madness
And all my goodness has turned to badness
My need to possess you has consumed my soul
My life is trembling I have no control
I will have you yes I will have you
I will find a way and I will have you like a butterfly
A wild butterfly
I will collect you and capture you

...c'mon, you can't tell me that's not Reve. Like kristen says, there's even butterfly references.. XD

::begins the kurai update..bum bum bum::

Anime lyn hasn't seen but wants to cos everybody's always talking about them, it seems:
Shoujo Kakumei/Revolutionary Girl Utena
Cowboy Bebop
Rurouni Kenshin
The X Movie
& the list goes on. ^^; but, just because I've never seen the X movie doesn't mean I know anything about X...on the contrary, I have like 8 manga books (english translated viz things^^;), so I have an inkling.. ^^; I know very little about the others, though, except that SKU makes it onto peoples' designs a lot.. ^^; I guess that's something else that limits any design I might have.. I prefer to only use images of my own characters (as I've said before), so whoever I con into designing for me has to work with whatever art I have.. ^^; Oh well.. there's really no point in coming to my pages if you don't want to read, anyway, seeing as how I do operate under the delusion that I'm a writer... ^^;

I am flitting around 'adult' domains... in otherwords, places owned by people in their very late teens (like 18 & 19) and early/late twenties, mostly.. I like this one. This is okay, too, but I think the art they offer shows more skill than their writing.. o.o;; The Ben guy's blog is cool too XD

Whoa, check this out, guys... a fluffy blog search engine list thing. :D

Standing in the doorway of my life in this house
Trying to find a way to get out
Looking for a sign that I should open the door
This craziness is getting me down
But today's the day
We break free

Walking down the stairway to the traffic below
Anything could happen, I know
Hey but I'm sick of everybody telling me what to do
I hear you hey but I already know

Maybe I should wait just a minute or two
It's getting cold now
I feel so insecure
The future is a mistress that is so hard to please
and the past is a pebble in my shoe

It's clear in my mind
After all of this time
What I feel, my love
There's so many times when the sun doesn't shine
But I'm here my love
Oh yeah
Here we go now
Booya. Claris themesong. =P

In spite of the fact that I'm hustling to finish up Clarity's first run, I'm also designing characters for Claris's second series.. I sketched one of'em today but I'm not putting it up cos it's not all done and colored and pretty and stuff. =p His name is either Ieiaiel or Cadmiel at this point.. I think he's probably Cadmiel because he's the one that likes Claris.. the other one likes Sean...they're both guys... =P

I have pages and pages of Chapter 11 to type up... o.o; I wonder how long it is... it's pretty long in my notebook, of course, but that's because I have bigass handwriting.. ^^; My rough drafts are so scary. I can't believe I used to let Kyla read them all the time..they're so blarg. ^^;

Mew..Etoile cut her own 'net time so I probably won't be getting to speak to her much.. ;.; And Kendra's friend Vix is still visiting so I'm not talking to her much lately either... I miss them ^^; Uh, if anyone wants to talk to me on AIM my SN is Spritegiri... I'm a whiny bitch though, so like..forewarning. =P

Mwr.. My teacher liked my prosy thing too.. ^o^ And speaking of Reve, he is the subject of the picture du jour...OK, so I actually drew this picture YESTERDAY, but since I didn't blog yesterday we'll just pretend that this is today's picture. OK? OK. The Latin is supposed to translate to 'my revenge,' so yesh. Daily Sally mention: She's a big Reve fan. ^^;;

No blogging yesterday, chilluns... my cousin and his boyz got here, not to mention I was really freaking tired..

Let's see, bad stuff first.. umm.. it sort of hurts to talk.. o.o and I'm unsure about what sorta grade I'm gonna get in Chemistry.. but as for good stuff..

What do you call going from an 84 to an 88 in one day? I call that a miracle of God, people XD What I find ironic is that the test that did all this wonderful magicalness was one that I didn't even know about. She announced it on Monday (otherwise known as the day I WENT HOME SICK...), so when I came in the next day I just had to take the damn thing. It was a cumulative, so it counted once and then, if you got a somewhat high grade, it would replace your lowest test grade. Now, I of course did not study for this sucker at all, when for every other test I did all the review problems and reread the lessons. I made 80-84 on the three previous tests. What'd I make on this? 93, people. 93. So yeah. That kicked ass. Ironic ass, but still. =P

Hey, Katherine, I'll be your blog buddy. (yess, I know you have a blog..how..? Well let's just saying I have SPECIAL MENTAL POWERS... well, okay, it's actually the recently created blogs list at blogger.com, but whatever...same thing)

Oh, Alana liked my prosy thingy...fluffiness :D That reminds me, I need to talk about that.. see.. I was supposed to read it aloud today, but since we had a sub I didn't have to XD Yay. I'm awful at reading things aloud because my diction sucks.

Like I'm telling Mal...I don't really think this blog will ever reach any heights in the blog world, mostly because I intend to fill it as I have been..that is, with story scraps and my poetry and my art and stuff..and it's more journalish than link filledish. I just find blogger to be much easier to work with than scribble or any of the other diary services available. ^^; & I like having it on my own server instead of lyn.diaryservice.com or whatever.. et cetera.. layout changes will also be few and far between because I'm terrible at them..thus there will likely only be a new one when I can con someone into making one for me..^^; also I only put up layouts that have my characters on them.. ^^; (or angel sanctuary characters, cos angel sanctuary kicks ass :D)

I had a ton of homework today... o.o; And unless god performs some miracle, I'm probably going to get a C in Algebra II... bllaarrrgg...

On the brighter side, I do have a three day weekend cos of the mid south fair (no school on friday^^;) and mom got home today...that's a good and bad thing, I guess. I miss my mom when she's gone but I get pissed at her a lot when she's here because she gets all bitchy and irrational and yells at me all the time. =P It's strange, I guess. ^^; But she brought salami and truffles from california... :D I haven't gotten at the salami yet but I'm sure I will before bed time rolls around ^^;

Oi, I have a chem test tomorrow... Chemistry and Algebra II are really the only two classes I'm having problems in, but you know, one (or two.. =p) rotten apples spoil the bushel in my parents' eyes--;

Damn Mal and her mad layout skillz... I'm not that great of an artist, Justine ^^;; & there's nothing wrong with being perky Carme... I just..er.. aren't XD (especially not with all the school stress I've been under lately.. ><)

And since I believe I must make it a point to mention Sally at least once per day, hello Sally, I hope when you read this you are feeling less tired and stressed...

My keyboard survived yesterday's Coke spill, but now my right arrow, down arrow and left arrow keys don't make that loud, satisfying clicky sound when I press them. ^^;;

d00d...I just checked the /wwwstat for kurai and ever since I made this a blog the requests for it have like gone way up and stuff.. I feel all special now.. =P

I feel alright now. This's my prosy thing that I've got to read out loud tomorrow to my Creative Writing class... I hope they like it.

Argh. Okay, screw this... I have GOT to stop putting myself down. Let me just admit it right here.

I AM PROUD OF MYSELF.

There, there, I said it. Yes. I'm proud of my characters and my writing and all the nice things people have told me about them. I'm even somewhat proud of my art sometimes (yes, I actually think that picture down there is sorta cool). But... I was raised to think that it was wrong to be prideful (remember I'm a Catholic ;p) so I feel like I've got to downplay myself all the time. And I don't know, I have something wrong with me that won't let me take a compliment. But I AM proud of my writing and my characters..my characters more than my writing... ^^;;; Anyway.. yes... I just wanted to get that out. ::drains her keyboard of the coke she spilled on it and whistles::

When the feeling is ended
There ain't no use pretending
Don't ya worry
It's only love

When your world has been shattered
Ain't nothing else matters
It ain't over
It's only love
And that's all - ya

When your heart's been broken and
Hard words have been spoken
It ain't easy
But it's only love

And if your life ain't worth living
And you're ready to give in
Just remember
That it's only love

You can live without the aggravation
Ya gotta wanna win - ya gotta wanna win
You keep looking back in desperation
Over and over and over again

When your world is shattered
Ain't nothing else matters
It ain't over,
It's only love

If your life ain't worth living
And you're ready to give in
Just remember
That it's only love
Ya - that's all

Ya it ain't easy baby
But it's only love
And that's all

'm crying into my coke... -.-

This blog has a really fluffy layout... o.o;; I'd link it but it's one of the persons Mal stuck in my links, so that would be a bit futile then, eh. ^^;

Etoile got a blog just about the time that I did.. :D It's fluffy too. Sally SAYS she's considering getting one... I doubt I'll ever convince Kai, as she seems to think blogs are tools of the devil, but c'est la vie. ^^;

Neep, my brother's home from school ::skitters away::

Well, I did it...I stayed home from school. ^_^;; Not really. I got up and went, but around third period I started feeling akin to a small pile of excrement, not only because my throat was killing me and I kept having to reach into my bag for another tissue, but because I realized I'd forgotten some of my Chemistry homework and I can NOT afford a zero in that class and oh my god what a run on sentence this has become O.O;

So anyway my lovely father came and took me home and I made myself some macaroni and cheese...then I slept for a while and now I'm awake and feeling very warm and drowsy. Also dreading report card time because I have the distinct feeling that I'm going to get my computer time either taken away or at least curtailed... ¬.¬

A small miracle happened today, though. I was in third period when I noticed a black pen on the floor next to me, this same black pen that I use to ink my drawings that had been MIA over the weekend. This is a miracle because usually, when I lose pens, they are gone. So yeah. That was cool. ^^;

I forgot the notebook I'm currently using to write in today, but I had another one with me so I still managed to write some more of Chapter 11..I'm on, like, the second to last scene here, people, it's crazy. ^^;

Been reading Mal's and Justine's blogs... Justine likely doesn't remember me, but she had a site (she has so many sites.. o.o; She has so many domains..like this one recently, fluffilicious ^^;) called Violin that reviewed stuff..and she reviewed Clarity and stuff. =p I think I still have it on my HD... let me check...

Hey, I just realized something... I haven't plugged Boredom Tastes Like Chocolate yet! Well, there you go. Go read it. It's cool. (even though it's on vacation for a week cos Kendra's got stuffs to do^^;)

Well, it's finally happening, saith the Kai. Tannas Hallow is kaput, adios, sayanora, hasta la vista, au revoir, ciao, goodbye going going going

GONE.

...that is, unless Kai has a mood swing.

Woo! I have a thesis statement! Umm.. now I just have to do everything else... ¬.¬;;; Yes, I know you all care.

Alright, all I have left in the way of homework is this paper on Martin Luther King Jr.'s I Have a Dream speech...ugh... I'm considering staying home from school tomorrow... jeez, this week(end) sucked. ^^;; No update this week either, folks. However, this is a short week--we get Friday off because of the Mid-South Fair, so if nothing drastic happens (like, say, my parents finding out about my Algebra II grade...) I should be able to update in the next coupla days...^^;

Whoa..I was just attacked by the SUPER PERKY telemarketer.. I picked up the phone and she was like "Helloooo!! We're conducting a survey on home phone services and we'd just like your opinion!!"

"Uh, my parents aren't home.."

"Oh! Do you know when they will be?!!"

"Um... a couple hours, I don't know.."

"OK, thank you!"

I swear, she yelled everything she said.. in that perky happy cheerleader way.. o.o;;

I went downstairs and had some salami and stuff...and my nose started bleeding again but this time it didn't get on my shirt, so yay. =p Okay, I'm really doing my homework now..^^;;;

::reading the People magazine she found downstairs, homework utterly forgotten...::

Aw dude I just got a nosebleed.. o.o Sitting at the computer and suddenly my shirt looks like it was dipped in crimson Kool-Aid, people. I get these everytime I get sick (because I blow my nose too much) but usually the blood doesn't pour out like that... o.o;; Oh well, it stopped and I'm in a fresh shirt now..^^;

Or not, again...I think this thing just hates me =p

OK, the guestbook link should be fixed now...^^;

I'm a-going blog hunting...and I have to put up descriptions for the links Mal already gave me XD Well, I know of two I want to link at least.. ::points to the Ice-queen (cos the design is fluffy and they mentioned me :D) and Rumika (cos she's so nice to me :D)::

"His mother had sky eyes that were often made grey by clouds. His father had fire eyes that burned with malevolent embers. He had wide lavender eyes that trembled like flowers in the wind. They lived in a town that was as lively as a cemetery, where everyone knew everyone else and no one said much. Reve liked to sit in the dewy grass and catch the flashes of color that flew by him. He would show them to his mother, and she told him they were butterflies."

First part of my last thing for creative writing class..it's essentially a rewrite of Solus. ^^;; Supposed to be all poetic and junk. =P

Man, these things are freaking addictive. I think it's because it's a bit like talking to yourself, and I have a tendency to think of odd random things and inform myself of them a lot (such as the conversation snippet down there^^;). Onto phase III of Creative Writing homework, though I still need a title for that poem...

In the core of the fire in the earth
The restless tears of grey clouds
In the zephyr as it slips through the loneliness
of naked winter trees
I love you
In the old gray grass suffering under the sun
The tenderness of nature's rain kiss
In the ice in my veins
Melted by the warmth of your words
I love you
In the dew stroking the leaf as it slips
Spattering, impaled on the blades of the lawn
In the darkness
of my room in the morning
I love you
As the horizon draws the sun closer
Swallowing the daylight
The honey in a flower's heart
As that bee steals away
I dream to see your face
And in this, I love you

...dude, I can't figure out what to title this. ¬.¬;

Random conversation snippet:
"All cats do all day is eat, sleep, and occassionally kill things.... what a life."
"Y-you do all those th-things anyway."
"Yes, but if I were a cat, no one would bother me about it."

Between Sean & Claris. ^^;

.III.
never eden

i did not ask
for eden
only wanted
your gentleness
the rain
on my cheeks
scent of flowers
in a little garden
maybe
a simple dress
not
this place so perfect
as a newborn leaf
torn
by our sinful eyes.

.II.
give a reason

explain how
i could be a part of you
when even
my breath
feels different
never will I be
your rib
i am my own
risen from the dust
not the bones
of one I have
never met.

conversation between eve & adam (only eve speaks)

.I.
eve's offer

i offer this apple to you
its perfect flesh
sweeter than mine
will quench
the gnawing
need for knowledge
in our souls
for the price
of heaven
i found it
off the tree
from which the serpent hangs.

First things first...creative writing homework.

Umm, or not...

OK, I fixed the time... o.o Now it's showing what time it is down here in Tennessee, as opposed to..um..wherever it was before. =P

Good morning, chilluns.. I've got a pile of homework sitting in front of me, but of course I'm distracted by this and by the webcomic I'm reading (Sketch of Love)--Jacques, if he had black hair, could be Etienne's twin... o.O; The art is really excellent, but I don't think English is the writer's first language...that's cool, though. ^_^

I think it would be neat to do my own webcomic, but for one, I can't draw...and for two, I would have a seriously hard time updating every single day. ^^; So instead I am just a reader.^^;