I am going... I'll probably be able to check mail, but probably only AOLmail only, so give me luvins at my AOL address so I'll have an excuse to stay on longer. =P Be sure to remove the bit that says remove this, it's to help prevent spam. ^^;; And yes, that last letter is an i. The L was taken.

Bye everyone. Love you. .__.

Well, this is it, I think. I'll miss you all terribly. Let us all hope/pray/whatever that my computer does not somehow screw himself up while I'm gone, so that I won't need to reformat or something worse when I get back.

But, before I go.... I did post a little bit of Claris's second chapter (very little. but it's there).

[WHINEBITCHMOAN]
Sometimes I wonder if I should close this blog. I display what a horrible person I am very often here. You all get to see my pettiness, my bitchiness, my whiny teen angst and everything that makes me the wretched human being that I am. Journals and diaries are the essence of egotism, whether anyone wants to admit it or not. Even thoughtful diaries filled with essays on the nature of life, the universe, and everything are still dashed with personal selfishness.

I could be a lot worse. I'm really not a nice person. People irritate me very easily. I have an idealistic, loving outlook, but I don't think I treat people as well as I ought to (especially when it comes to speaking to subbies for Jumi. I bet all the recent ones I've spoken to on AIM think I am Lilith Incarnate or something). I like to watch people and I feel bad when I see people suffering or hurt, but when it comes to social interaction I'm a dud.

And I really like having this blog. It's kind of nice to be able to just spill out the brain juices whenever the urge strikes, and even nicer (though sometimes a bit frightening) to know that people actually care about said brain juice. It's frightening because I know that there are people out there reading this who do not like me. Who may even wish that I and my whole family dies tomorrow, who may wish that I never achieve my goals in life and various other maliciousness. This is not paranoia (although paranoia is another one of my major flaws). I have seen and spoken to these people, and to them I say FUCK YOU and go away. If you don't like me, you don't need to be here. The worst part about this is that these people don't like me because they suffer the delusion that I'm popular. I'm so tired of arguing with people about whether or not I have legions of fans (if I do, I would like to see them at my house next week). The creators of comics like RPGWorld and Exploitation Now and Sinfest--THEY have legions of fans. _I_ do not have legions of fans. And that is one of the reasons why I would close this blog if I didn't enjoy it so much--because then I could just write my writings and draw my drawings and hope people would read, look, and remark, and I wouldn't have to deal with answering to all this 'Oh, shut up, you're so popular' nonsense. Clarity gets an average of 26 hits a day; Claris even less. That is NOT THAT MUCH PEOPLE. And this is only main page hits; who says these people actually go in and read. This is especially compared to comic creators, who have thousands of hits a day AND make money selling related merchandise (through those beautiful Cafepress stores).

The people that are resentful and bitter over my popularity (or at least they ACT LIKE IT) are sometimes not the wicked lurkers I mentioned earlier. Sometimes they're people who do say they like me and tell me I'm good at this stuff, and I wonder why they would claim this and yet still say these things when they know it makes me so uncomfortable. :\ And what do you say to people who act like you're this well known megastar? o_o 'Yeah, I am, thanks'? [/WHINEBITCHMOAN]

Blah. This went nowhere fast. ._.; But if you have something to say in response, say it here. (I'm stealing an idea I saw on Faith's pita and using my guestbook for comments :B)

Aww, someone said no to both on my little poll down there... further proof that rumors of my popularity have been greatly exaggerated.

Fresh Karma uploaded, despite my pen's dying midway through inking the page (had to use a reg'lar writing pen). Crisis averted. :3

Umm..nuts. It's 6 and I haven't started the next KS page yet...better get to that. Tomorrow will most likely be consumed with packing, and then it's off to suffer in Miami for a week. .__. Dad's bringing a laptop, but our AOL is pay by the minute, so I'll probably only be able to get on to check mail (maybe not even reply >_>) and that's it.

An unfortunate event.

I'm not going to be here next week (I'll be in Miami), so I want a picture of Kuruma & Sinclair in swim trunks and Sattva in a bikini to put up on Monday... but I can't draw that, so I'm going to see if I can harrass someone into doing it for me by Friday (I leave on Saturday >__>). I will be eternally grateful to whoever tries this... and if more than one person tries it then they can have theirs up on that Friday, since I need something for then as well >_>

Yesterday was Harry Potter's birthday (the character, not the series). I wonder how many fans remembered? X3

It's just a song lyric, don't get worked up. =P

Rabbit, rabbit.

i'm a loser, baby, so why don't you kill me

"Basically, I hear all these voices and I have to put them down in order to shut the fuckers up." --Thom Yorke.

True that. XD

Any time I start thinking I'm popular, I just take a look at Strange Candy's tracker and realize how very, very unknown I am. =P When this blog, Kurai, or anything else of mine starts getting over 1000 hits a day--then I'll call myself popular.

I am happy because keenspace updated itself...
I would also now like to take this time to apologize to anyone's birthday I may have recently missed... I'm really bad about birthdays. The only reason I remember my own is because it's on the first of the month (February). So the only way I know if it's a friend's birthday is if they remark about it to me or in their blog/whatever on the day or the day before. ^_^; Otherwise I won't know or will forget.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VERA! :D

Hm, I wonder who was the person who said they'd buy a published Claris but not a published-other-work-of-mine... (I also wonder who was the person who said maybe to both :\)

Or maybe I'll draw the pyro guy.. hmm hmm.. ::coloring the next Karma page right now:: I didn't use any reference pictures for this one, and while a lot of it does look bad, there are some panels that I'm proud of too. I like to draw things for people because of the way they get all happy, but I'm really not good at drawing other people's characters. Also drawing someone else's character requires more work, since I have to make preliminary sketches (that no one ever sees) and mark styles and colors so I don't totally screw up the picture.

It really makes me giddy when people draw pictures of my characters, regardless of the quality. Sure, I love finished, colored pieces, but the fact that you thought enough of me or of my work to draw something is truly touching.

I haff drawn you pictures before, Vera... not very good ones though. o__o I'm going to draw a nice picture of Julie soon, I promise. >__>

I'm not going to quit any of the RPs I'm in... but I've decided not to make anymore new RP characters. So if you're a friend and you're starting an RP, and I don't apply, don't think it's cause I hate you or something...

God I love coke.

This blog has had 40500 hits... o__o That's more than Kurai. x__X

Also, even though I did put the 'I expect free copies' response, that's not what I was really asking... what I was really asking is if you consider my work good enough so that you would be OK with paying money for it. It seems like most everyone understand that, though. I have smart readers. :3

Thank you to those of you that voted in my little poll. Your responses are truly comforting. It's nice to know that if I ever do get published, I'll at least have that little core of you people to help me not be a resounding failure (a book has to sell thousands of copies, I'm fairly certain, to be even considered a mild success).

I am so hungry... but there's NO food in this house, not even frozen stuff like cheesesticks that I can stick in the oven. I think I'm just going to have make myself some more rice. x__x

Watch it, Vera, I'm getting your mailing address now. Now I just have to get three ones (all I've got, currently, are tens and twenties... the physical manifestation of my sexy, sexy, eighty dollar check).

::ruffles Kyleigh's hair:: Hey, now, I'm the only one allowed to proclaim self-suckage around here. :B