I hate feeling stupid x___X

It's really no good regretting past mistakes, after you've done all you can to fix them. After all, you can't go back and change what happened, can you. -___-

Ah, I kind of like the brothers garcia.. it's sort of a lower quality Wonder Years, with a Hispanic flavoring; it's on Nickelodeon. One of the few tolerable shows they have left.

This song reminds me of me a lot: (it's by blind melon)

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watching the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
And speak my point of view
but it's not sane
It's not sane

I just want someone to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
You know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away but it's a great escape
Escape... Escape...

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
You don't like my point of view
You think that I'm insane

The fridge was making an odd noise when I went to get my coke.. I hope it's not possessed by a demonic spirit.. xx

I feel rather waspish right now. Perhaps a coke.

::squees because Rumika took a Tialiel XD XD::

I'm going to Co-GM kai's new RPG idea.. it's about dragons and stuff. I'm going to make one of those Asian breeds, because they're cool. A girl. I think it's about time I had some girls. I don't really know why Kai wants me to help her, anyone who's in or has applied for Jumi knows I'm a Lousy GM with a capital L. Oh well. It's a learning experience, to say the least.
Generally if people ask me to do things for/with them I'll say yes, unless there's no way in hell I could do it (i.e., draw someone a manga.. I can't even draw myself comics ^^;). I believe in helping people when it's needed/wanted, and I like to do it. Unfortunately I'm inept, so my attempts at helping tend to go awry.. -__-x

You know, at first glance this seems like a cheery layout..but the lyrics on the picture are not cheery at all.. XD Though the song is sung with a lot of.. hmm..compassion, I suppose. It's very Reve-ish. (Ali gave it to me. Yay Ali!)

Updating my lynks yet more. Mostly people I stalk-but-who-do-not-know-me blogs now.

God, I hate anti heroes. x__x They fucking piss me off x__x

I have revamped the rest of my blog also. :B;

Lynks updated, finally. xx ::falls over::

::puts Kylee on her lap:: Poor thing.. I don't know what's going on, but I hope you feel better..and I care.. x___x

Some songs kick ass until the singer starts singing. Knife of Romance (AS) is one of those. ^^;;

hahah.. XD Bryan was asleep on the couch and the cats were crawling around on top of it, and they started hissing and clawing at each other..then they jumped off and ran away and Bryan said,
"Well, that was dangerously close to my head... I think I'll be changing my pants now."

XD XD

O~la sanctus E~u sanctus~ I can kind of sing along with Sanctus because the Japanese words are very clearly pronounced and several of the words are Latin..while several are French. ^^;
I've also been downloading Depeche Mode songs recently... and I finally found out what it means, from DM-obsessed Mirri.. xx That has been bothering me ever since I first heard of the band (which was many, many, years ago)

::listens to Sanctus:: It's been so long since I heard this song (since my AS CD is scratched ;__;)...it's so freaking cool xx

120K/sec transfer rate!!! ::dies of happiness *___*::

I LOVE Midnight Blue xx (the Slayers movie theme) Especially the 'Tsukiyo~ Kazeyo~' etc parts... I would sing with it, but I don't know Japanese..so it's more like attempting to imitate the sounds. :B;; I try as hard as I can to refrain from using Japanese words in my speech; generally adding suffixes onto people's names is as far as I go. I mean, I'm American. I admire Asian culture a great deal, obviously, but I'm not Asian. There is not a drop of Asian blood in me, and I'm not going to go around using words from a language I don't know. xx It doesn't bother me that other people do, especially if they DO know the language, but excessive Japanese in a fanfiction written in English pisses me off. Like hell I want to keep referencing a dictionary to figure what you're saying. xx

Dude, it seems like everyone I know has a friend named Sean.. well, Donna and Maj do anyway.. X3 X3 I knew it was a common name, but.. weird. ^^;

I miss Kendorah ;__; I wonder what's going with her xx

::flomps Dani:: Oh yes I DO read your blog.. XD XD
Hey Vera, that Ulala picture rox :3 I love the birdlings and her spiderweb outfit X3

Malloreigh's mad design skillz floor meh :B

Awright, blogger swallowed up my post into its abyss.. but I was basically petting Gemifluffer and Hikafluffer in it...

Oh, and I did not get to see Sallyfluffer all day today. xx

Um. Dead Can Dance is cool. xx ::starts maniacally downloading their songs off Napster::

New layout~~ does it please you? Still working on reformatting the other pages. :B;

OH, and kurai is paid up for another year, too, I think. HAHAHA. Thought you could get rid of me? NO SIR.

Oh yeah, and I got into A.P. English. No, I have no idea as to how the hell it happened, but it did, and I'm glad. xx

I got a B on my chemistry make up :D :D YOUR POWERS WERE WITH ME XD
I don't know what I got on some other test though.. so.. I still either have a very high C or a very low B. Good news, though! I got an A in Algebra II!!! (94, just barely, but an A is an A goddammit!) That's the first A I've made in that class this year. RAWK.

Annoyingly, I have to go out to eat tonight. I have had hardly any 'sit in front of the computer and veg' time this week and it's totally pissing me off. At least tomorrow is Friday.

AW YEAH IT'S THUNDERING XD

Well, geocities has proved its monumental bitchiness once again, and has disallowed offsite linking. Rather than reupload all my crap, I'm just moving the pages with images on them to geocities. Yes, I realize the lamosity of this (I might as well just move sugeo entirely to geocities, but..no. :B;;), but I don't have much of a choice if I don't want a bunch of people complaining about the images not being there when they are--geocities just won't load them. I can't put them on kurai because I frankly lack the space. That's all there is to it. ^^;;

I'm relieved, I'm relaxed, I'll get off of your back.

Uh, yeah.. I did some unlisted updates (to Claris, mostly) yesterday.. I was going to finish up today but I am so damn tired... I didn't expect this day to be so long; didn't even get -home- until six.

Voldemort's castle is in Translyvania, is it.. X3 Is he a vampire..? X3 X3

::wiggles:: We're in the city, city, making me want you, making me want you, making me care~~
Saint Etienne, the band, is very cool X3

I wonder if there is some law of nature out there that prevents filks from being anything but completely lame. I have read very, very few good filks, only one, actually, and it was for a fandom I'm not even into. I like the idea behind a filk (a filk being a song fic, for those that don't know)--that is, a song inspiring a story--but putting the lyrics in with tiny chunks of text in between is just.. it's lame. Even if it's good text (which it, sadly, very often is not).

Now, if you are a filker, do not kill me. I just have read very few quality filks.. xx Maybe there's a horde of non-lame ones out there that I've yet to fall upon. xx

Is there anyone out there who doesn't think that Draco's parents beat him on a regular basis? XD XD Not that I disagree, I'm just wondering.

Post, bitch, post. xx

Well, the little girl who I bought the other HP calendar for already has one (not surprising; she probably got one for Christmas, but you know. I tried, dammit xx), so I offered it up to the girl who sits nex to me in French class, a very nice sophomore named Amanda Aycock (who wears the coolest clothes and is an excellent photographer) and she got all excited. XD So I'm bringing it to her tomorrow. I already took off one of the stickers in the sheet included--the Slytherin sticker, of course--and stuck it on my blue notebook (which contains the entirety of the draft of my HP fanfic^^;;). Oh yez. :B

I wore makeup today. Foundation, blusher, lip gloss. For most people this might not seem so earth shattering, but I never wear makeup. Only on special occasions.. but now I've decided that I must face up to the fact that people are going to judge me by my appearance. Therefore I will try to make that appearance as tolerable as possible from now on.. this doesn't really involve much, just a little more time spent primping than usual (which for me, is no time at all)--at least on weekdays, when I have to go out. I'm lucky enough that I lack acne on my face (it's on my back), but without the foundation it looks blotchy, you know, with patches of redness and patches of paleness all around.

I won't wear lipstick, it feels disgusting. Only lip gloss, mostly because I think it looks prettier and you can eat it off if you get tired of it. :B;; I'm very fond of blusher, but I can't apply eyeshadow without making myself look like whore. My hair is usually a puffy bush, but when I dry it right it generally lies flat... unfortunately I'm out of conditioner so unless I steal mother's then it's very hard to manage. xx' But I'm trying, I'm trying.

So there you go. Lyn's New Beauty Plan. :B;;

And yes, I did take the Chemistry test. I..uh.. don't wish to discuss it. :B;;;

Heey, I think my friend Mirri from school reads this sometimes.. so if you're bored and reading this now then heeeeyy XD XD

This fic is interesting. Draco: part Veela AND obviously a boy AND girl magnet. XD XD Yes, it's D/H. What, you think I read anything else? Hahahah. Silly people.

OK everyone, I'm going to study for my Chemistry test. At 2:30 tomorrow (EST time.. adjust to your time :B;) think of me and pray/wish/hope I do well on it, because it could well mean the difference between a B and a C xx (which means a difference between losing and keeping the computer)

Everyone, I am aware that some of the images in Clarity's galleries are down. That is, all the ones that were hosted on saucybard. :B; Fret not, I'll upload them elsewhere and change the links..when the hiatus is over. Which will be soon. I swear. Thank you for your continued support and patronage. xx

I think I need to get offline soon and get down to homework business... I really, really, REALLY don't want to go to school tomorrow.. but I must. xx

::cries tears of joy because a few people are actually putting the Claris icons on their pages:: Sob.. sob.. ;___; That makes me SO HAPPY ;___;

You know, I don't really -hate- anyone..but a lot of people really fucking piss me off. Even people who are my friends make me really angry sometimes. It's like, 'I love you, but I don't LIKE YOU right now.' Actually it's my close friends that I tend to get the most upset with.

Dammit. I'm pissed off. xx

Hmm, well, it's working, but it's moving at snail pace.. xx

::smacks it:: Well, now it's working. Jeezus.

I don't get it... I can't log into Kurai FTP with WS_FTP but I can still post to blogger. WTF. xx

This is a test.. o.o

Damn it.. someone knocked on our door really furiously and rang the doorbell, and when bryan went to get it no one was there.. I just thought it was a prank, you know, but suddenly Bryan ran in the playroom and turned off the lights and the TV and stuck his head out the window and he was panicking, and although my brother loses his temper easily, he is a very logical person. My dad is both calm and rational, and he was getting his gun.. so yeah.. I was fucking scared.. still scared.. xx I just came back from a shower, and when I was in there I was afraid this whole Pyscho episode was going to go down. xx
I'm so paranoid xx

The excellent Etoile has agreed to collaborate on my Idea! :D IT WILL COME TO FRUITION XD

I think I may have just narrowly escaped yardwork...God I hate yardwork xx Especially when it's freezing outside, like it is now... and we have a bloody huge yard. xx

Woo! Tengu did Harry fanart! (Harry McDougall, that is) *_* It's so pretty!!

Usually I dislike characters like him, but jeez..what he did at the end.. how can you not love him after that?!! o.o ::glomps the picture::

Darnit Sally, I got on early just for you and you are not here. *_*

Anomiefluff, Alistair's sword is very big.. X3 He carries it on his back. :B; and yay, Jaimielee drew Metafluff...want to see.. :3

Whoa, that was a long-ass post. Get ready for another one, folks. Last night, while reading that Bruce Coville book (which is called Odder than Ever), I became, as I usually do when I read fluffy stories, inspired. And I had an Idea. OH YES.

But my Idea, my artistic skills being somewhat lacking, cannot be enacted alone. Here is my Idea: to create a kind of graphic short story, in which I place text on a page and juxtaposition it with an illustration. Naturally, in order to do this, I would need an illustrator. If you are AT ALL interested in working with me, here are the particulars.

First, you have to be able to draw scenes. As in, more than just people. More than just pin ups of people. I myself can only do the very latter, which is why I'm having to ask for a collaborator instead of doing it myself. :B; And they would have to be in color, preferably, because if I do this I want to be cool and nice.

Second, you have to be willing to draw some shonen-ai, as this will be a shonen-ai story. :B; NO, no yaoi, I don't write porn, friends. You probably won't even have to draw guys kissing if you don't want to, that's how subtle I am about romance. xx'

Third, the Idea is a rewriting of a classical myth, updated for now, and replacing the female love interest with a male love interest. Since the myth is of Greco Roman origin, I do not believe doing this is terribly damaging to the spirit of the story. X3

If you're still interested, email me pleeaassse..and I will tell you which myth and other goodness... I will give you lots of time and freedom, especially since I'm probably going to get banned from onlineness in a while anyway. Oh, and I'll love you forever if you do it. I mean it.
(though you might not like that :B;)

Additionally, if you're wondering how many pictures you'll have to do..well, I estimate that this story will (as it is short and based off a myth, and myths are usually short too) be about 3000 words at max. There will be 500 words per 'page', so you'll have to do 6 illustrations maximum. Not too horrible, I don't think. :B;

I went to Border's yesterday, to spend the gift certificate I got for Christmas. In general I feel very smarmy about spending money, but since this money was a gift I didn't feel horrible. x.o' I'm a very discriminatory consumer... unless it's a cheap, I rarely buy things unless I'm willing to commit illegal acts to get them. Given that, I only bought two books, a magazine, and Sailormoon SuperS 4. I also bought a Harry Potter calendar (for a dollar :O), which is cool and neat and obviously not illustrated by Mary GrandPre. I bought two actually; one for me and one for this little girl that comes over to our house sometimes who's also very into HP (she was Hermione for Halloween, if that gives you any indictation :B;)

The first book I bought was The Silver Kiss, which, in my opinion, is one of the best vampire books ever. Yes, it lacks the flowery writing (for the most part) and homoeroticism of our friend Anne Rice, but I would much rather read this book than any of her stuff any day. :B It is, of course, a Young Adult novel, so it's not horribly graphic..but you'd be surprised at how far you're apparently allowed to go in YA. :B;

I also bought a new book, a collection of stories, by one of my favorite authors in middle school, Bruce Coville. I stayed up until god-knows-when last night and read the WHOLE THING (okay, so it wasn't very long, but I usually don't read whole books in one sitting) and it was AWESOME. A few of the stories I had read before, but most of them were brand-new. If anyone wonders whose style inspires me the most, it is this man. I hope that one day I can evoke the emotions in my readers that he evokes in me (tears, laughter, agony xx). I'll tell you about my favorite stories.

First was the Japanese Mirror, which was about a guy who worked in an antique shop. One day the owner received an item from (badum) Japan, a mirror that he said had been carved over three hundred years ago. The guy, Jonathan (it's told in first person, so you don't find his name still some time in :B;), is quite fascinated by the mirror. Now, before then, he had a pretty bad temper, supposedly inherited from his father (who's now dead). But as the mirror stays with him (he looks into it every time he's in the shop, and is always having to clean it), he finds that his anger suddenly drains away every time it comes to him. This happens first when he cuts his finger in the shop, and that cut sort of remains throughout the story, as a bloodstain on the mirror that won't come off and just keeps getting bigger and bigger.

Finally, the mirror is sold to an old woman. By this time, Jonathan had completely changed from being Violent and Angry to Calm and Strong. But all his anger had been concentrated inside the Japanese mirror--and now whenever he looks into mirrors, he sees his ugly, angry self instead of the calm person he's forged himself into. So now he has to stop all this concentrated anger from breaking free from the mirror and wreaking havoc on his loved ones (which it has promised to do xx).

The second is called Am I Blue?, and it's about gay guys, so yeah. You know it's gotta be cool. XD Basically it's about this boy named Vincent, and it opens with him getting beaten up by a guy named Butch (har :B;) because Butch (as the story says) decided that Vincent wanted to jump his bones. As Vincent is escaping, he meets Melvin, his fairy godfather (who is very gay XD). Melvin explains some facts of life to Vincent as they talk in a cafe, and then says that one of the great gay fantasies (he can't say the first two because Vincent is too young XD) is to have everyone in the world who is gay turn blue for one day--so that everyone who's not would have to face up to the fact. He also informs Vincent that he has two wishes. :B;

Vincent is extremely confused about everything, especially his sexuality, and he can't really tell who's gay and who's not..so Melvin gives him the ability to see it, by, of course, making him see gay people as people with blue skin. The degrees of blue, obviously, indicated degrees of gay-ness. Vincent goes around for a while like this, very surprised at what he finds. His own face is mildly blue, showing his insecurity. :3; Vincent thinks very long and hard about things, and then asks Melvin to enact that third gay fantasy and make everyone who's gay blue for one day. Melvin does. Crazy business happens. XD Then Vincent asks Melvin to turn Butch (the guy who beat him up at the beginning) blue, and Melvin goes to do so, but comes back saying that Butch is already as blue as..well.. a blueberry XD XD

There were a lot of other cool ones, but those two really kicked ass I thought. :B;