Oh yeah. I'm bored.

I'm making one of those cafepress things for fun... XD; I like designing t-shirts. :3

I need to write Clarity... but I don't have any inspiration... I miss my friends. -__-

Since listbot is going under, I saved everyone who had joined kurai's list into a .txt file. I expect I'll have to do it this way from now on. ^^;

Okay, I lied, I got it up. I needed something to help me relax.

Alright... now onto pleasant things. Except for this incident, today was a very good day. I saw Tomb Raider with Ali and Laris and had a great time. My favorite episode of Zim was on. I discovered that I actually can move a wheelbarrow full of bricks. I got some really nice Karma fanart (but it's not up yet, even though the new page is... I ran out of time before the movies, and now I'm too tired.. sorry... tomorrow .__.;) and some nice emails. It was just a good day... but now my nerves are all frazzled and I'm thinking about how much I miss Sally and Kai. And it's going to be a long time before either of them are home again. -__-

::stalks around and breaks things:: Today was a wonderful day. It really was. But let me stress the was. I came home and had to do some scanner work for dad. Okay, that's cool. My brother says to save the pictures to the D drive, and I think 'What? Didn't you tell me not to use that?', but knowing he'd make a fuss if I didn't do what he said, I saved them there. Chaos ensues, because the D drive is FUBAR (fucked beyond all recognition), and Malfactor freaks out and restarts himself and chokes and just generally does not work. Finally I just redid the work, but now I'm all queasy and anxious. I want a new computer. ><

Gawddammit... I can't find my Dark Umber pencil.. so I'll have to use black as a substitute.. ::grumble::

Jaimie-J, most people's middle and elementary school years were akin to yours. At least, I know mine were. I was rarely called fat (I'm one of those people whose weight always manages to stay in the not fat and not thin area, never really venturing into one extreme or the other.. so I'm not a skinny baby doll like most of the girls at my HS but I'm not an oozing mass of lard either), and with your height and weight you don't seem like you were terribly overweight. :\

I'm 5'5 and my weight fluctuates between 130-140, and the only person that's ever made a remark on my weight is my brother (and he's no bean pole himself) and mother. I got picked on just because I was plain ugly. Mostly for my hair. Looks like a rat's nest. Always has, and always will, unless viciously attacked with a hair dryer and styling products.. but anyway, there was always a lot of backstabbing and name-calling and general cruelty going on. It was worse for me because I was unpopular (as were most people, really) and I cried very easily... my actual initials are CB, see, so I would be called Cry Baby. =P I don't know.. a lot of bad things happened. One of the worst in my memory was this time in 5th grade. It was our first year with lockers, and we all had combination locks. For some cosmic reason, a girl whose locker was near mine had her combination written on a Post-It note that was stuck to the inside of her locker (not sure what having the combo inside the locker would do, but whatever), and once while I was minding my own business and putting up my books, she started freaking out and saying that I'd looked at her combination and acting like I wanted to steal all her stuff. o__o Later that day during recess I was sitting on the swings, also minding my own business, and she just came right up to me flanked by two other girls and said something like 'My mother said I should always tell people when I have a problem with them, and I have a problem with you' and I was just like 'Uhhh...'

I found some of my old diaries from those years, the pen and paper kind, and my entries back then were short, insipid, and always about the people I was currently associating with. I feel disgusted when I think about that time of my life, but I feel just like you do when I see that girl and everyone else that was horrible to me (mostly because I make better grades than all of them. HAHAHAHA).

::hugs her eluff:: I have no doubt that my parents will always think of me as the failed child, as well. I have an above average GPA, but my standardized test scores are pretty awful, and I'm incompetent at nearly everything known to man. Especially driving. ¬.¬

I watched Shrek last night... it was good, despite the fact that the picture quality was poor and there were Chinese subtitles (...it was a bootleg ^_^;).

Yee! YEE!! ::glomps Vera until she suffocates:: Are you KIDDING?! I LOVE that picture!! And you got all the details right!! ::gushes:: THANK YOU!! ::grovels::

Ahahaha XD Genki/Kels-chan-fluff wrote a Clarity fanfic... about none other than Omnes & Jigoku. =P Read it here.
She also has a page about them..and she's done Clarity cosplay. I love her so much. XD

Yee! Emily came by with a burned copy of Depeche Mode's new CD and I am listening to it now, and it is good.

Umm, I really need to draw the next page of Karma... but I also want to finish this first half of this Clarity chapter...

Jaimie-J, I don't think those people would listen to you if you were God himself. That's how bigots are. But it was awfully low of them to go off on your upbringing like that. I'll keep your back if they push it.

Uhh... yeah.

There's a solar eclipse today, but it can only be viewed from Africa. Sucks.

Ee, they're playing Everywhere on the radio again.. I really love this song (and apparently so do a few other people ::fluffs Ali::)...I just wish I knew how to properly spell the singer's name so I could find some stuff about her. The lyrics down there were transcribed as I heard them, so they may be incorrect, even though I don't think so--she sings pretty clearly. But I tend to be wrong a lot...

I left blogger open all night.. o_o

In your life
You seem to have it all
You seem to have control
But deep within your soul
You're losing it
You never took the time
Assume that you're to blame
You think that you're insane
Won't you SPARE ME
Really like this song too. I'm listening to the radio. XD;

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
Just tell me how I got this far
Just tell me why you're here
And who you are
'Cause every time I look
you're never there
and every time I sleep you're always there
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know that makes me believe
I'm not alone
I recognize the way you make me feel
and I think that you might not be real
I sense that now the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Because you're everywhere to me

I really love this song.. especially those verses.

GYAAHAHAHA! Zim was just on Nick--actually it was on U-Pick--and it was my favorite episode! Yeeeeeeeee!

::passes out from malnutrition::

I'm reading various sites on publishing/getting published. People, there is a lot more to this process than you think, and I'm only mildly relieved to find that my assumptions have been, for the most part, correct. What are my assumptions? First, that lengths of works are judged by WORD LENGTH, NOT the number of pages. Differing page sizes can adjust page length, but the word length will always remain the same. I don't mention word length so much anymore mostly because my current word processor doesn't have a function which does this.

Second, that it's just as much about actually writing as it is pimping yourself and your work like a dirty, dirty whore. =P Being an author is not just about writing, as much as I wish it were--it's about being able to market and sell your work to publishers so you can get it to an audience and make enough money to keep writing.

Did massive blog-linky updating...also deleted/edited most of my profile. And all the links out no longer trap you in my frames. Rejoice!

Good lord, someone got here through the search query 'eminem fanfic slash.' WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?

I'm listening to my Enigma CD (the screen behind the mirror).. it's one of the few CDs I can listen to while I write, mostly because over half the tracks are instrumental (or otherwise don't have very many lyrics). I can think about plots and characters while listening to music with lyrics, but I usually can't write things down because the words get all conflicted.. it's hard to explain. I have to do my homework in complete silence. ^_^;

Well, Kai is gone for Scotland. Flarn.

Yee! Those sketches are so cute, Yujoon! And you're so cute too. I fluff you! ::fluff:: Thank you so much. ^___^

Gah! What a bitch, Jaimie-J! I tried to respond, but I couldn't because I'd already reviewed before..but here's what I was going to say:
Czar, we all know it's you. No one else types with your special brand of bigotry, immaturity, and most importantly--incoherency. If you're going to insult someone, you might well at least have to guts to leave some form of contact behind, likesay, your Conventia webpage. Honestly.
She is really starting to... irk me. =P

Draw me Kuruma, Kat X3

Oh, I didn't know that you didn't know, Jaimie-J. X3; I've seen it spelled Oruha on all the pages I've read about it, and that seems the most logical/pronounceable spelling, sooo.. anyways, I think you should just give up on those dorks at Conventia... they're obviously too prejudiced to even think about what you're trying to say. :\ To hell with people like that, I say.

I think sexuality is a very personal matter, and I don't think people should go displaying it anywhere, whether they're gay or straight. I sure as hell don't go parading mine around (and if you know me, then you know which way I swing). I think any art and fiction of a sexual nature concerning a show like Zim is innately wrong and gross--it simply doesn't fit in with the spirit of the show, gay or straight. Now, notice what I said, there. I said sexual--I didn't say romantic. Romance doesn't always have to be based on physical intimacy, and I really don't mind the thought of hugs and kisses, though kissing still pushes it with these characters. And anything beyond that is just weird.

But the fact of the matter is that I won't speak out against people who do like that kind of thing, or at least, I wouldn't go on some crazy crusade to shut them down. I am strongly anti-censorship, and that means taking the good in with the bad. Even fools must be allowed their voices.

"Why are you dressed like that? Where are your glasses?" she leaned over the table. "Have you joined the forces of darkness?"

"Don't be silly," Assyrius said, biting into the bread. "It's just a slight fashion adjustment."

"You have!" Cassandra cried. "You're an evil minion of...evilness! Aren't you?"

Assyrius petted his sister's hair.
"I just can't hide anything from you, Cassie."

"I'm telling Mom," she pouted.

From Clarity XP Cassandra is Assyrius's younger sister. ^_^;

There still aren't very many good pages about him, but now it seems that everyone has captured that little shot of him from the movie trailer. This bothers me for some reason. =P

I'm thinking about starting up work on my Draco page again.. I still love the little bugger, evil as he is. I think I might just make it a nice little mini-shrine, though, kind of like my AS page...

Argh, apparently Serena-fluff had a birthday recently..um.. happy belated birthday. I'm horrible with birthdays.

Anomie, that's not a new line. XD; That was in the original edition. I left it in because I liked it.

Ha ha... I lurk at B's board. I took down Kurai's (or rather, removed the link) because they seemed extraneous. I think if I'm going to have a board I need to participate in it, and I'm really much better at simply reading boards. I'm very much a lurker/watcher kind of person. ^_^;

Hee hee.. I liked to view people's information on AIM. There are some people on my list who are there, but that I don't talk to... because all I want to do is stalk them and see when they are on. (scared yet? =P)
My AIM, for those of you that STILL don't know, is Izumimiya. It means 'shrine fountain' (with Izumi meaning fountain and miya meaning shrine) and I just think that it is pretty. My other name is Spritegiri, but I'm only on there when I'm actually on AOL, and that's usually just to do stupid things like poke through Member Profiles or whatnot. I don't have any secret AIM names like so many people seem to... I guess because I don't really have any frightening stalkers to hide from.

Let me say now that if you're on my list and I don't talk to you, it's not because I don't like you--it's because I don't want to be a bother to you. I'm very shy about beginning conversations unless it's a person I never see on or I have something important to tell whoever it is I'm talking to. Most of the time the conversations I do have are started by the other person. Please know also that I am a very difficult person to annoy online. Offline I become irritated with people very easily, but through the AIM medium it's hard to make me lose my temper. You are never bothering me, unless you're flaming me or whatever. I love to talk to people, I'm just horrible at conversation, that's all. I never know what to say and everything I think of sounds banal to me. And if I fall idle, it's usually because I ran downstairs to eat something and read the newspaper, not because I wish you would stop talking with me.

I finally got up off my lazy ass and answered all my email (not that I had much, just a few, but even so). I -love- getting nice mails but I'm horrible at answering them, though I keep promising myself to be better.

I keep seeing commercials for the Final Fantasy movie. *__*

I'm afraid that I'll be forced to do yard labor, and so will not be here if Kai returns later tonight...

Whoo, Gemiko-fluff applied to Dragontears... girl, you are such an awesome artist.

Yee! Kristen-fluff got her domain up. (hey, I saw that sketch of Sattva in your oekaki folder... are you going to color it? :3 :3)

I was wandering around aitenshi today and was wondering what Claris would be like as one of those radio play things... I don't know if there's anyone in the world who has a voice like Sean's, though...

Jaimie-J, your new layout is fluffy. Oruha is very beautiful.

Aarrgh ::spasms:: Kai was on just a few minutes ago and I didn't get to talk to her because I didn't have AIM on!!

Lesson: always leave AIM on when you are at the computer, especially when friends are about to leave on vacation. Arr.

And speaking of AIM, Kendorah has disappeared again...I hope I didn't scare her off.

Melikey the comic Jaimie-J :3 And the other pictures. I'm going to add oh, Elysium to scribo ergo sum, so get up the code, yo.
Alright.. now I go to bed...maybe write some more Clarity...
Efluffer gave me the most kickass Claris fanart, which I will hopefully post tomorrow. She always gives me such confidence in myself.

Mweheheh.. I took the moniker 'Death' on the Neil Gaiman message boards, because she is my favorite Endless (I like her, Dream, and Delirium best). Blogyou did not give Mr. Gaiman's blog a very favorable review...I'm still working up the courage to submit myself to their scrutiny (or, as it seems in some reviews, lack thereof).

This site roxxors. I really want to find some translations of the later volumes, though...like the last three. I really love my AS mangas... I have all twenty, and most of them are in very good condition (some are kind of bent because they got squished in my backpack :\), and I hope to keep them that way. The artbooks are both in excellent condition, as well, as is most of my other AS-related stuff. I just love Kaori Yuki and AS to pieces, it's such a wonderful series; and I'm glad that more people are recognizing it.

Okay... I did a lot of productive things today. Cleaned my room, worked in the yard, drew, wrote. I have the first half of Clarity's second series second chapter done; it just needs typing. I'll probably do that tomorrow because I feel pretty wiped out...then I'll write the second half, and then I'll go back to Claris. The next Karma page should be along soon also.. I think I might do a twice a week schedule or something..

Unfortunately, I got in too late to say goodbye to Kai, who is leaving on the 20th. :\ I will miss her greatly, and speaking of missing people, I am also missing my Sallybug... I need to send her birthday things.. I'm glad I have her address on file. *__*

I need to link blink's blog... I think that experimental piece was really cool, but also very depressing. ^_^;;

This looks cool and fun, but for one, I don't think I could stay up all night, and for two, I don't think my parents would appreciate it much. ^_^;

Apparently I'm not allowed on the computer tomorrow until my room is clean to my mother's standards (and in my mother's standards, a room is only clean when there is absolutely nothing in it =P), and if I happen to be on the computer, it shall be taken away for a week. Ahh, parents and their lovely mood swings.
Hey, Jaimie-J (and anyone else who's never seen the Wonder Years), if you want to know what Dib's voice actor looks like, here's a little page on him (or rather, his character TWY). I expect he's the kind that looks young in spite of age, since he was playing an HS student in Wonder Years and he was twenty then, and now he's 33. :3;

Sometimes I wonder if I should just close down Clarity in favor of Claris and my other non-fanfiction work..and then something like this happens:
silvrchairgirl85: hi you wrote "clarity" right?
Izumimiya: yup
silvrchairgirl85: i just have to say that you are a very good writer
Izumimiya: oh.. thanks ^_^
silvrchairgirl85: as a fellow fanfic writer, i think you're work is excellent
silvrchairgirl85: your*
silvrchairgirl85: lol i can't type
Izumimiya: i'm glad you enjoy it ^_^
sokay :B

Oh yeah... Happy Father's Day, people.

::hugs Jaimie-J close:: crying is good for you.

I thought you'd never ask, Jaimie-J. X3 Please do put up White Flag.

Summer Sunday when you went insane
You said you're going but I said I came

You beat yourself up to bring yourself down
Let it go, let it go, let it go
When the world is coming down on me
I let it go
I got no reason for the things I say
She turned toward me and then she turned away
Lots of forces in the modern world
That take their toll on a modern girl
I press my finger on an itchy trigger
What once was small right now is so much bigger
Jenny says turn off the radio
Jenny says turn off the light
Jenny says turn off the video
You beat yourself up to bring yourself down
Let it go, let it go

Got no reason for the things I do
The dealer deals and then the dealer's screwed
Throw your cards upon a playing table
My name is Cain and I am now un-Abel
Got no reason for the things I fear
The things that plague me (?) in here
A dime's a nickel, a nickel's none
I'll throw myself into the Sunday sun
Jenny says turn off the radio
Jenny says turn off the light
Jenny says turn off the video

You beat yourself up cause
YOU LOVE IT

Time for my annual blog lynky updatey...

I am reading Demonology 101, and it is Good. :3

People that read my blog regularly but don't link me on their own blogs frighten me. All of the blogs I link, I read regularly (though I've fallen behind on the seiryuu hosted ones because of that poor server's troubles ::fluffs Cal-Tan::), and there are a few others that I flit over to every month or every few weeks. These aren't linked mostly because I am lazy and forgetful, and since I don't visit them all that often I usually forget to link them, though I really should. Anyway, the point of this is that I posted something a looooonng time ago (well, not that long, it was in May) and the day after the person it was directed to read it, deduced it was directed to her, and wrote me a response. I didn't see that response until today. =P

Whoah, Kylee, what is going on? Is someone going crazy on you? I wish I lived down where you do.. I would kick that guy's ass for you.

I finally revised the first chapter of Claris. The same things happen for the most part (there's one scene that's almost completely different from how it was), and I also left in the a lot of the same wordings (mostly near the end), but I also changed a lot of wording and took out stuff that I thought was extraneous/lame. See if you can tell a difference. XP