My brother's friend gave him The Patents of Nikola Tesla for his birthday, possibly one of the most geektastic gifts ever. For those of you who are like me and were previously largely unaware of Mr. Tesla, he invented the alternating current sort of electricity that we all use in our houses today (Edison invented direct current, used by cars. My brother, due to his knowledge of Tesla and how Edison screwed him over, thinks Edison is a quote unquote dick). He was kind of crazy, though, and obsessed with the idea of wireless communication of energy (like microwaves). He also built giant towers capable of generating huge (130 feet) lightning bolts, thus scaring the crap out of the town below the mountains he lived in when he was older. Players of the game Command & Conquer will probably know these as Tesla Coils, and you can buy kits for smaller ones online in places. I'd like to have one in my yard. Heh heh heh. n_n

I got Anima in FFX! Ali and Laris brought me HP dojinshi and the special editions of the british version of the first two books! w00t! :D

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Well, the inevitable has happened. XP I was cleaning my glasses with a towel from the cabinet in the bathroom, and the left lens (as it is wont to do) popped out and shattered in half on the tile floor. Currently I managed to fit the two pieces together and push them back into the frame, but it's a very fragile thing and of course there's a huge crack now. So I have to go to the eye doctor today and get a new prescription...and quickly, since I can't find my old glasses (and I even if/when I do, I won't be able to see that well out of them any more anyway).

Thanks to everyone who wished me a happy birthday an' stuff. Now I'll explain.

The day started out poorly. I guess that should have been a sign or something. I did horribly--I mean.. horribly... on my math test. Seriously. Bad. If I want a B (which I do, because if I get a C I will feel so awful and guilty because my parents have been so nice and good to me today and I really want them to be proud of me but argh and anyway) I have to not do this again on the next test. The thing is that my daily average is like, 97 percent, and then I fail the test. Totally incongruous numbers, no? And when I say fail, I don't mean, a C. I mean fail. Spectular failure. So that was upsetting. Then I realized I had all these tests today that I had not at all prepared for. I took the English and French tests, but midway through fifth I just felt so awful (sick with worry over the Physics test, just plain sick, unhappy about the day in general) that I decided, you know what, I'm going home.

I think I may have tallied three absences now in French, so I may regret doing this if I get very sick again and want to skip another day (more than 3 absences as a senior means you're not exempt from your exam), but um... we'll see I guess. I don't really care about missing Physics--I know I have to take that exam. I'm mainly worried about what I was worried about last time--getting two C's on my report card (C in Physics and C in Adv. Alg and Trig), which would be mind-bendingly awful. Luckily I got a B in Adv. Alg and Trig barely last time, though I did get a C in Physics (84)... I hate Physics so goddamn much. I don't think it's even possible to comprehend how much I loathe that class. It has caused me more pain and stress than any other class I have taken, ever, and it's because the teacher is a moron. I'm also a moron, which is why her being a moron is a problem. =P I don't know.. I'm torn because I just.. I don't care. And I can't make myself care. Guilt is my only motivation--the guilt that comes with getting grades you know your parents will disapprove of. Guilt and the fear of punishment. Not exactly the purest of intentions. I DO care about AP English though. That's probably the only class I really care about, which is why I was devastated earlier when I did very poorly on an in-class (I usually make perfect scores and I did terribly on the last one.. on Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man.. hated that book. n_n). Made me sad.

But anyway.. so.. the day was bad. But then I got home, and made that little misery entry below this one, and then I started to play Final Fantasy X to take my mind off my unhappiness. Then Emiko called and Alicia called and they both came over.. and Alicia brought me pretty flowers and Emiko brought me a nice teddy bear and notebooks and a sketchpad (I luv notebooks. I really do. it's kind of sad, really -_-). Then we kind of sat and talked fer a while and then we all went to Bola Pasta with my brother and his friends, Matt Thesing and Matt Taylor, along with my parents of course... that was fun. Then we came back here, then we went to Starbucks and then Borders and I bought myself Rayearth 6 (although I need Rayearth 5 n_n) and the day just basically got a lot better after Alicia and Emiko showed up.

My eyes burn now though. Eugh.

But.. yes.. thank you. I sincerely appreciate the happy birthdays and those who IM'ed me to say so (Sky and the lovely Vera) and on their blogs.

i came home early. worst birthday ever. ::curls into a ball::

Rabbit, rabbit. Happy Birthday to me. Here's hoping today doesn't suck as much as I'm expecting it will.

I am deeply disturbed. o_o I just received a spam mail about mortgage rates and loans from a fellow with the following email address: dracomalfoy@desertmail.com

::pokes Draco:: Something you're not telling me, buddy?

DRACO: Shut up, woman. n_n

::sighs:: Okay, I'm better. I have this quote in my AIM profile and I try to remember it whenever I get pissed off:
"Anybody can become angry; that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, and to the right degree, and at the right time, and for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not within the power of everybody and is not easy." (Aristotle)

It calms me down.

I am so angry right now that I can't even breathe, which is bad, because I already can't breathe that well cos of this sinus infection. Deep, healing breaths... Deep, healing breaths...

MOM: Wouldn't you like a nice necklace or watch for your eighteenth birthday?
ME: How about cigarettes and some porn?

I really wanted to stay home today. Reallly really really. But I can't, because if I tally up another absence in French it'll be 3, and then if I'm absent again I won't be exempt from my exam. So I must suffer. My biggest problem is that I honestly can hardly breathe. I'm incredibly congested and must resort to breathing through my mouth for about ninety percent of my oxygen right now, which is a very loud and embarrassing process, especially since the air often does not feel like it's reached my lungs. Therefore I'm left sitting and gasping for air like some sort of dying fish. This is okay when I'm in a room full of people (or even just a teacher) talking, but when in the quiet of a classroom it is painfully audible and usually earns me concerned looks, as the sounds I make when trying simply to breathe likely give off the impression that I am, in fact, dying. Additionally I am very hot and know that I have a temperature. So I would really have liked to just stay home.

I did get to leave a few minutes earlier than everyone else though, because Bryan had to go downtown for a school-related activity (which is where he is now), and to get there on time he had to leave early. Since he is my ride, I got to leave early as well. Not very early--school lets out at 2:15 and we left at 2:00--but still. If not for the whole not-being-able-to-breathe-thing, I'd actually be in a pretty good mood. The weather is absolutely lovely. I wish every day could be like this, except with actual rain instead of just the threat of rain. It feels like spring (my favorite season). The weather people say that normalcy will return tomorrow and it will be freezing cold again, however... and while I do love this brief spate of warmth, I know that the fluctation in temperature is what caused this illness I have. I always get sick when the weather goes wonky. Always. And it usually happens around this time of the year too. I believe I was sick on my birthday last year, possibly the year before that too. Unless this clears up by Friday, I'll be sick this year. Blerg.

Urgh.. so.. hot... can't.. breathe... arrgh... ::rolls over and dies:: x__x

These are my 'fantasy' characters. All of them live in the Forest (which still does not have a new name. I have to poke through my latin dictionary n_n), and all of them were first conceived when I was wee (though they never had real visual designs). Elanora and Lex both used to be old people, but I can't draw old people, so I made Elanora look like a regular young woman (perhaps in her late twenties) and Lex is a little kid (though, as is usually the case, very old in actuality). Anyway, all of these names were either made up (as with the vampires and Ridloran) or just chosen, so they don't have any real significance. n_n

Notice how they all have only one ear. XP I hate drawing ears, but Ridloran and the vampires both have pointy ears (Ridloran's are far more pointed than the vampires, as you may notice also n_n), which I wanted to, um, show. I do not like to draw ears, though. n_n

hm.

Woo, Nichole's back. Thank goodness. I was getting worried. n_n

So today was a surprisingly good day, considering that I did NONE OF MY HOMEWORK and it feels like someone is keeping a fire lit in my throat (swallowing is currently a most uncomfortable experience). I failed the Hamlet quiz, I'm sure, but not spectacularly, I don't think, and I probably would not have done much better had I read the entire play (instead of just Act I, part of Act II, brief other bits, and some Spark Notes). My French teacher was absent, so it didn't matter that I had not done French, and since there was a substitute I was able to finish my Physics. Nice how things work out like that sometimes.

Also everyone said nice things about my hair, which was a refreshing change. XD I don't know how many of them were sincere or simply remarks out of politeness, but even so. I still think it's a wee bit too short, but I guess it will grow out soon enough. You see, I didn't have my glasses on while the hair dresser was doing my hair, so I just sort of feebly acquiesced to whatever she was doing, since I'd said in the beginning that I wanted it short but not REALLY short, you know? And I think it's really short. n_n It's also really.. 'fluffy'... which means that people keep patting it. n_n That's just how my hair is though... it's thick and wavy, which are good adjectives, but honestly it usually looks horrible because it's always out of control. Now it's trying to get out of control, but it's having a harder time because the hair dresser cut so much of it off. =P

Seems that rateyourmusic.com is down, so I removed the comments function fer a while. Blarn.

Hmm...

Updated Kurai, mainly with the new Claris chapter(complete)! W00t. n__n Please read and tell me how it is. .__.

Apparently there's a service that hosts Oekaki boards for free... at Soshi's suggestion I went ahead and made one fer Claris, but it's in Japanese of course. n__n Going through here filters it into Engrish though. I'd like a nicer one but I don't know how to install'em.

New Karma. n_n
I have also finished the Claris chapter, but it needs to be typed. Hopefully I can get that done today...