New Karma. Since I'm on spring break, the wait between pages will be shorter. Hopefully I can get this first part finished with before the week is out, even.. maybe.. o_o

On a lighter note, one good thing did happen today, this morning. Last night I plucked up the courage to make a post on one of the Japanese Okage pages I really love, just because I liked it so much that I felt I had to say something even if the creator might not understand all of it. And she (well..maybe it's a he, but I'm assuming she due to the nature of the page and the shojo artwork.. :3;) responded :D and so did a few others. All favorable, from what I could discern. ^_^ I don't know, it just made me happy to connect with someone on the other side of the world like that, who's not only oceans away but speaks a language that is completely different from my own.

I would like to learn Japanese, but I'm discouraged because I know it would take serious dedication and work. I'm very good with languages--it's the only area where I even sparkle a little bit--but then, that's stuff like French and Latin and Italian, all of which are built on one another. It's easy for me to pick up subtleties and connections in language, which is why I can spend most of French nodding off and still manage to bring home grades that don't get me yelled at. But Japanese is completely different. Although my ability to pick up those nuances helps me translate the Engrish that a few Japanese-English translator sites produce, actually learning the language would be a mighty task, I'm sure. I have great respect for those that undertake it.

Wow, today was a bad day. It's beautiful and nice and warm outside (I would like every day to be like this, except for rain on some days), but the day itself was just awful. The happiness I ought to be feeling about not having to face school for a week should be kicking in, but all I really feel is depressed. ::lies down on the floor and sighs -_-::

Happy (belated) Birthday, Dora..and I'm gonna have to agree with you: I'm not liking where Buffy is going. n_n

I am still filled with worry and fear. I have so many tests tomorrow, y'all. And I really do not need to be failing them, but I'm probably going to anyway, despite the studying I'm doing (which I'm breaking from to write this post). Driving me forward is the thought of spring break: a week of no school, and happy time with Ali and Laris on Sunday. Though I still have projects for school to do over that time, at least I don't have to deal with actually going to school or getting up so damn early for a week. But still.. tests.. -_-

I am filled with worry and fear. -_-

Yee! Tengu, please forgive my pathetic soul!! Mom called me to down to yell at me for letting the cake bake too long and by the time I returned I was too late to see the sketch and tell how you cool it is. n__n It made me smile. :D

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Ah, that was good for a laugh. =P

I always feel so grateful for my parents whenever I hear about the problems other people have with theirs. Like was said in the Post that was Lost, my mother's best friend just discovered she has breast cancer, and her children's father (they were divorced at the time..) died just a year ago. This is something I didn't have to deal with at a young age like this woman's daughter is doing, and something I frankly hope I don't have to deal with until I'm fairly old myself (like my dad--both of his parents are still alive). Compared to others, I got lucky in the parent deal: my parents rarely fight and none of them are dead or deathly ill. True, dad has to take pills every day to prevent his immune system from attacking his replacement kidneys, but it's not a huge, scary thing that we all must always worry about. So, yes, I'm lucky, even though my parents are far from the ideal parent (my ideal parent would like everything I like.. but I guess I should just be thankful that they don't actively forbid me my hobbies, like the parental units of some that I know).

This is an evil week of evilness. I have so many tests on Friday it's not even funny. I think teachers must secretly rejoice when times like Spring Break or something come around. They think to themselves--not only can we spring tests on them the day before they're out, but we can assign them projects to do over their breaks! And be justifiably angry with them if they return from the break with the projects either not done or done poorly, despite the fact that we KNOW most of them are either going to be out of town or trying to sleep the entire time! Grrr.

Blogger is being really weird lately... ::pokes:: There was a post here, but it's gone now, but I guess it doesn't matter since it was a dumb post anyway.

Today I again faltered in my desire to Not be a Mean Person. Today I was mean, and I continued my meanness until I got home and realized how mean I was. In fact I was thinking meanly even as I sat down in my chair, and then, for some reason, I realized that while I'm not entirely wrong I'm not at all right. So, although this will likely never be read by the person for whom it is meant, I'm sorry.

My God, I love knowing how to read IP addresses. They can tell you so much. To the two that, for some reason, put in 'lynsucks.html' for kurai, yes, I know who you are, no, you are not funny, you are just stupid.

Even more stupid because now that I know for certain your IP addresses, I can keep track of all sorts of wonderful things. Yay!

TWO new pages, man. I am a machine. Worked long and hard on them, and they're important, so, please.. comment on them? Please? Pretty please? C'mon, I'm asking nicely here...

::hug:: Jessie, you are definitely one of the nicest people I know. You've always been easygoing in your responses to people, and even though we don't really TALK all that much, we have known each other for a pretty good amount of time, I think.

GodDAMMIT, can I not trust ANYONE? Jesus.

The next Karma update--I would like to say tomorrow but it'll probably not be until Tuesday--will be two pages. I'm this close to finishing the first part (I don't know how many parts it'll be..maybe just two, maybe more, it was originally intended to only be one, but you know how it goes), and I was just struck by plot revelations neccessary to finish this first bit up--and get the whole story going somewhere, hopefully. I'm about to have some fun. n_n

My mom is going to Switzerland from March 25-April 10. I think we're all going to be dead (either of starvation or because Bryan and I have killed each other) by the time she gets back.

Maaann.. Clarity's page needs some serious work. Someone asked about using a picture from the page and I went back and went through some stuff... Man, that is bad. I think I'm going to cut down the profiles to the bare essentials like on Claris. And everything else just needs revision. So old. n_n (but, I want to work on my Okage page.. -__-)

I'm really poor with writing long, detailed character profiles, but you know, that doesn't mean I don't think long and well on a character's personality, history and appearance. Nearly all of my characters--including the alleged 'minor' ones like Charon--have long and full histories mapped out in my brain (this is why Clarity is a problem sometimes.. there's so many characters and they all have so much to reveal about themselves n_n). I think about quirks and individual traits often when writing them, and also when writing I try to focus on appearance as well as thoughts--that is, to convey both the expression on the face and the emotion behind it. I'm not very good at that yet, but that's my general intention. It's annoying to run into this assumption that for a character to be worthwhile, s/he has to have a drawn out profile--and twice as annoying to run into the assumption that just because the profile is drawn out, it makes that character good. Sorry, no. N.B. here, I'm mostly referring to single person stories like Claris and Clarity--those stories and their characters, not RPG profiles (yes, there are people who seem to think you need long drawn out profiles for one person, non-RP characters, despite the fact that to do so would probably spoil the character development for the reader...).

I understand the need for length in an RPG profile so that the GM can get a full understanding of a character, but I still think a character can be grasped without a small novel on their likes and dislikes, for god's sake. But, with PBeMs, it's neccessary for the other players to be able to grasp the character as much as possible in order to write well in their interactions with that character. This has always been my problem with RPGs, because I develop characters based on not only themselves but on how they react to those around them, and those around them are usually also characters of my own design. I have a hard time grasping a character through just a profile, which is all most RPGs have to offer for their other players, no matter how long that profile is. This is another thing: I also develop characters through actually writing them, and no offense to anyone (because it's perfectly understandable; nothing got done in my Jumi either), but.. not a whole lot of real writing gets done in any PBeM I'm in or have seen, excepting a few.