Oh, man, these nylons are murder... stupid weddings.. argh.. can't breathe. .__.

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I feel all dizzy and warm.. hmm.. that's.. not good.. n___n

I find it interesting how anime (and video games and manga, etc), when they involve Christianity, are primarily concerned only with the Roman Catholic denomination. Priests and nuns and so on. I guess because Catholicism is the 'spookiest' denomination, rooted as it is in ritual and Latin chanting. =P Even the church in Okage (one church in the whole world, and it's in Ari's village. A woman in town even says this, it's the only church in their entire world. What the hell) seems Catholic--that is to say, the sign outside mentions confession, and I'm not one hundred percent sure (please correct me if I'm wrong) but I'm fairly certain that confession of sins is a mainly Catholic convention.

Nuns, also, seem to appear more often as side characters or parts of a church that the characters are visiting (as in Sailormoon, or as in Cowboy Bebop..there is One Pound Gospel, though...), while priests are actual main characters more often (such as Wolfwood in Trigun.. and Billy Lee Black isn't exactly a priest, but he's definitely spiritual).

When asked about my religion, I still answer Catholic, but I'm not a very good one. Really, I think it's hard for anyone to be a good Catholic unless they are either willing to repress themselves or they're the kind of person who is at peace (and hardly any of those kinds of people exist). I don't even know if you could say I'm a Christian, but I do believe in God (sorry if you think that's silly or stupid, but I do) and while the Bible has a lot of crazy stuff in it, it makes good points about good things, too. It's a difficult thing.

I think this is one of my favorite BMB strips. ::going back through the archives::

Damn it, why doesn't this girl go home?! And I have to go to a wedding tonight... arghh. I thought I was going to have this weekend to myself, after the horribleness of last weekend. ::whine whine whine::

I think I really must make an Okage page. I just can't stop thinking about it... the game left so many questions unanswered, and so many only partially answered. Eek.. it's distracting me from my work. Worse, I have no one to discuss it with. Woe is me. n__n

Man, I could have been at Emiko's house watching the new Vampire Hunter D.. instead I'm here babysitting (and it's not really a job because I'm not getting paid for it). Sometimes having a conscience is really lame. =P

I've never really been a part of the 'gamer girl' online community, despite preferring video games to anime and despite having played video games since I was a weester. It seems like a hard thing to break into if you are not l33t in your skillz of design, and I'm not... not to mention I don't have any video game pages (but this may change, since there are next to zero pages for Okage and this will simply not stand).

I've always liked video games (read: RPGs) better than anime (and manga better than anime, usually), in general, because not only do you spend more time with video game characters, that time is more.. hhmm... the closest word I can think of would be 'intimate' but that sounds strange and wrong. Basically it seems that you get to know a game character better than an anime character, because you're actually participating in their story. Even if the RPG's total running time (games like FF7 take up to 50-70 hours, which is a damn long time, but Okage only takes about 25) is shorter than the running time of a complete anime series, I think you still come away from an RPG with a better understanding of those characters--and of their world--than with the anime characters (unless it's an excellent anime that has a lot of focus on characterization.. but I'm speaking broadly here), simply because you participated in their world and story by playing. I doubt there'll be many who agree with me on this, but this is just always how I've felt.

...it also seems that all my comments have been mysteriously erased. Isn't that special.

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle, it'll up the ride
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright
Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in
Live right now
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright.
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or
looked down on
Just do your best, do everything you can
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say
It just takes some time, little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything will be just fine, everything will be allright
--The Middle; Jimmy Eat World

Oh yeah.. something weird, in Okage's ending. A bit character (who had not yet appeared before) accosts Rosalyn, and he looks a lot like how I picture Alistair.. spiky blue hair and huge sword and everything! o__O Spooky. ^^;

Witness the level of my obsession--I actually drew something. It's kind of like a '4-koma' but I think it's too wide or something.. :3; The only way this could be conceivably amusing is if you knew that Stan turned Rosalyn's shadow pink when they first met (before the game started), and he promised to turn it back when he regained his original form. Also that Stan inhabits Ari's shadow for 90 percent of the game, but I guess if you know anything about Okage you know that. n_n Mostly I just hope the text is legible.. >__>

Ahh, I finished Okage! The ending did please me, though it could have been better.. it wasn't long enough, but then again, the entire game wasn't long enough. I think I may actually play it again, or at least some of it.. to write down some of the better quotes. XD It's sad that Epros is the last member of the team because his rhyme-style speech is incredibly hilarious (and often cheap instead of poetic, which makes it better) sometimes (and he fights with cards. and he floats instead of running. also he's cute).

I do not like, for the most part, how Stan's real form looked in the game--I liked his hair and his outfit (loved his outfit), but his face was too big and squarish, ngh. It should have been cute like Ari's or Epros's. XP So I will continue to picture him as the Japanese fanartists do. I will not say anything else at the moment so as not to be a spoiler. :3;

Since another.com is going to be unavailable to me soon, I'm going back through my emails and saving the ones I'd like to save... and at the beginning of this address are the mails I got when I posted the second chapter of the second half of Claris. Back in August. Most of them involved speculation over Donovan's feather, the nature of which was not revealed in the third and probably won't even be revealed in the fourth or even the fifth, and god knows what month--or what year--it will be when those are written and posted. XD;;

You know, I was taking a shower, feeling very sorry for myself, thinking the most awful thoughts. Thinking I should stop writing, stop creating, stop drawing, stop everything. Thinking about that. Then I got out of the shower, and the floor was wet, so I slipped on the tile. Luckily I grabbed the door, otherwise I would have fallen back on my head instead of just my butt, but it was enough of a painful shock to jar me, to make me think 'Stop that fucking nonsense, you moron.' -_-;;

I would really like to talk to someone, on the phone.. to hear a voice. But I'm too afraid to call and disturb anyone, so I guess I'll just go lie down and see if I can work up some courage.

I've reached the World Library (otherwise known as the last chapter) in Okage. n__n Curiouser and curiouser.

Today was... a day. I feel very cold and depressed. Damn.

I actually spent today doing little Okage doodles on my notes. I am officially obsessed. -_-;;
(but, for those of you who are playing it and haven't given up.. I think maybe the Deep Grave Pit dungeon will definitely deter you. Eight levels of urn-bashing fun :3;)

Unfortunately I'm also stuck, and not on a puzzle.. that means leveling up. n_n Oh well. I'll endure anything for a story this good. XP

My Math score on the SAT went up over a hundred points. I think that calls for a Hell Yeah. o_o

I hate it when I'm walking behind someone in the hall and then suddenly they just stop, and I bump into them. I hate it more when they (or she, rather.. boys are actually more considerate about this than girls) act like it's my fault that they stopped in the middle of the hallway, as if they expected me to pass through them like some kind of ghost. Or perhaps they were thinking I had psychic powers and thus should have been able to anticipate that they would suddenly decide to come to a halt, instead of veering off into their classroom like everyone else. Now, I'll stop in the hallway too, but I won't get upset with you if you run into me, because I am standing right in your way. Of course you might say that I could have just walked around her, but our hallways are usually too crowded (they're quite small) between classes to attempt that sort of lunacy.

My faith in humanity has gone down about five notches today (not just because of that, but it was a factor =P).

Whoa, Resident Evil trailer on TV! Got to see that. o_o

Looks like another.com is going to start charging. Time to get a new email address.

I don't know why, but for some reason this just strikes me as completely hilarious. Perhaps it is the slow madness coming upon me from forcing myself to do nothing but these reading journals (with occasional breaks to look at stuff like that), forsaking everything that is good and enjoyable about the weekend (which is nearly over anyway, and I still have a lot left to do). Perhaps it is just the juxtaposition of a Starbucks coffee cup with a coaster for a Japanese video game. Perhaps.

Ahh, ain't nothing like a good dose of old fashioned Mom-guilt to completely annihilate a good mood. Thanks, Ma! x__x

Oohh, this is useless. I can't stop thinking about Okage and besides all my favorite Sunday night TV is on. But at least I'm genuinely smiling. I haven't done that in a while.

Hee-hee Even using the right font (which I had, at one time).. XD I guess that is what he looks like then, since every fanartist draws him that way. ::struggles to pull herself away in order to work on reading journals n_n;;::

Hey, I wonder if that's what Stan really looks like (if you're wondering about the page name, which you probably aren't but I'll say anyway, Ari's original name was Luca/Ruca and Stan's original name was Stan, but I guess it's also written as Sutan [or Satan, maybe :3;;] when romanized)... if so, then, hmm, not bad. o_o Could just be speculation on the artist's part though... That page has a lot of really nice HP fanart too, but since I could waste half a lifetime going through all the nice Japanese HP fanart pages, I'm just looking for Boku to Mao (or rather, Okage.. Boku Mao is the original name [Satan King/Beezelbub etc and I] in Japanese I guess).

(sorry, I love this game. The battle system is still horrible, and a lot of the music is kind of annoying, but I just love it :3; I'm glad I bought it)

BRYAN: ::preparing to leave for Georgia Tech, because he is spending the night at a friend's house and then driving down there with him, and will not be home until some time Monday::
ME: Don't die!
BRYAN: Mmm-hmm. Good advice.