Well, we sprayed ant poison all around the computer area; that seems to have deterred them, at least... I think I may spray on a bit more before we leave tomorrow.

Speaking of that, I won't be here all Saturday, but I'll be home Sunday afternoon, cause we're going to the MTAC. It's going to be a long weekend, folks... I'm only leaving for one day, so I hope my computer doesn't freak out like it usually does, since we're not turning it off. >__>

I am this close to seriously freaking out. Ants are assaulting my computer area...mom killed four wasps today... I'm worried about my grades.. I'm leaving for Nashville tomorrow... Bryan's being a jerk... I'm worried about my COMPUTER freaking out while I'm gone (even though it's really only for one full day)... that guy's harrassing me... Gotta draw Karma; got to work on Wrimo (though I actually do enjoy that), aaarrrgghh... make the pain stop. ;__;

Ahh, I am amazed by my own vast hypocrisy sometimes. I believe that people should make an effort to treat other people with kindness and gentleness, yet I think that I tend to be somewhat of a standoffish bitch in many of my dealings. I don't know if it's because many of the people I come in contact with are stupid and frustrating, or if I'm just a prick, or if it's a combination of both. I TRY to be nice, I do. But people are such ASSHOLES sometimes that it's so hard to be Christlike and turneth the other chick. Take this one guy, for example. I have no idea as to who this... I don't know, I can't even think of an appropriate expletive for him, but I have no idea as to who he is, and he's lately been harrassing me on my way to Physics. I assume this boy (and I know this has nothing to do with anything, nor should it, but he is fat and ugly =P) is amused by my Gigantic Backpack of Doom. Before I go on, let me tell you about my Gigantic Backpack of Doom.

It's not really a backpack, at least, not in the sense of everyone else's backpacks. It's more of a hiker's backpack--besides just being huge, it has a lot of extra pockets--two large ones on the front which each have smaller ones set into them, and you can stuff things in the back where the straps are, and there's even a separate mesh storage place inside the main part of the bag. My bag is usually full, as I don't use my locker, so the full effect of this back's hugeness is often felt, both visually and physically, by people that see me in classes or are unfortunate enough to barrel into me in the hallways. I get remarks about this bag ALL THE TIME, despite the fact that I have NEVER USED MY LOCKER in ALL FOUR YEARS of attending high school. The only difference between the last three years and this year is that my bag was always too small to carry EVERYTHING, so I usually had to carry books in my arms. But this bag IS big enough to carry everything (nearly everything. I can't fit all my binders into it, which is why I still only have binders for AP English and math... >_>). Yes, I know I'm going to have a hernia when I get older. Perhaps if I'm lucky it will kill me. But I digress.

The point is that people are always gaping at and remarking on my Gigantic Backpack of Doom. In fact, just today, while in a literary magazine meeting, a girl suddenly stared at my bag and said 'Oh my God, is that yours?', as though she had never seen it before in her life. However, this little idiot is the only person that's actually harrassed me about it. When he first saw me, he tried to trip me (let me reiterate that I have no idea who this person is, besides a fat, ugly underclassman with giggly girls around him at all times), much to delight of the aforementioned giggly girls. Not being an idiot, I didn't fall. In the days following, he would say 'Hey, there she is' and 'Hey' and make a wretched little smirking face that makes me want to break all the bones in his face--and then today he leaned over and was hitting the back of my bag because I was ignoring him. If he bothers me again, I'm going to do one of three things: first, I'm going to pretend to fall down the stairs and break something, then scream and scream and say it was ALL HIS FAULT for harrassing me and pushing on my bag. Second, I'm just going to beat the shit out of him. The only thing preventing me from this course of action is the fact that other people would get caught in it and also that I usually wear dresses, and it's hard to beat the shit out of someone in my dresses. =P Or, third, I'll just grab him, drag him to the nearest teacher, and get him into as much as trouble as I possibly can. Either way this little bitch is going to pay.

I would also like everyone who (for some reason -_-) has standards for me and is expecting to read this: this novel will be tripe. I will not be trying, I will not be focusing on any lessons or deep thoughts of any sort, I will not be making an effort for depth and meaning and so on. It will simply be writing for the joy of writing, and the fact is that I love writing. It really does make me happy. I thought the nanowrimo would be a good excuse to write just because Writing Is Fun. This story does not have a singular direction or theme or purpose. I'm not saying that these things may not accidentally emerge (given my self-righteousness, it's hard for me to keep out themes of the redemptive power of love and forgiveness and just plain being nice to each other), but I'm not actively working for them (I'm not actually actively working for them in Claris, either, otherwise the story would get stupid fast, but you all know what I mean here). The point is, don't expect great things. The only planning I've done for this story is that I want to have a chapter, somewhere, consisting entirely of the word 'Neep.'

Also, the pieces in Fatal are the prologue: I started chapter 1 today.

I'm probably only going to login to update my word count every few weeks due to the lack of a readily available word counter, so people that carry on the joke of 'I'm beating you!' will be met with steely glares of Death. =P

[WHINE] I am so worried about my grades this marking period... I know that I completely and utterly failed my Advanced Algebra & Trig test today, and I can make a 66 and still pull a B--but I may have done even worse than that. x__x I SWEAR I studied, but the problems she puts on the test take FOREVER to do and it's just like with the ACT/SAT--I run out of time to think. There were at least five that I had to completely guess on and who knows how many more I just plain didn't do correctly. So there is a chance that I'll make a C... I'm praying, praying, praying this doesn't happen, especially if I make a C in Physics as well... because I may also make B in AP english. Two c's and a B.. deplorable. I might as well not even come home. -_-;;; Two B's and a C is bad enough... ugh... >< ><

Sorry.. I just had to get those fears out. .__.; [/WHINE]

And another thing--what's with all these sudden new fans of Tolkien's work? This stuff is nearly 50 years old, people (The Lord of the Rings was completed in 1955, I think, so about 45-46 years, and The Hobbit was published in the thirties...). It has been around for a while. Why are you folks suddenly slithering out of the woodwork now that there's movies being made? (not that I have anything against fresh fans, but it's just weird at how many more I've seen lately)

I first read the Hobbit when I was in third grade or thereabouts, and I remember being extremely proud of myself for having finished what to me was a colossal tome in only 3 days. The Hobbit was probably my first books of serious quality (although I loved to read, the only other things my parents bought me were stuff along the lines of Sweet Valley High and Babysitters Club), and, of course, my introduction to the realms of fantasy. I don't have anything against this sudden spate of fans, it just seems odd to me that they're only now raving about it because there's movies being made.. :\

I think my comments are messed up.. I saw that someone (dun know who) mentioned forgetting what a blue moon was--it's when a full moon happens twice in a one month period (a very rare occurence^^;).

And for a completely different tack which I thought of when I saw the highly immature banner on Kirryn's page... =P Comparing the Lord of the Rings trilogy & the Hobbit to Harry Potter is like comparing an apple to an apple shaped orange. As far as I can tell, the books share only two major similarities. First, they're both fantasies. Second, they both have mythical/fantastical creatures (and Gandalf is, of course, a wizard). THAT'S IT. The ONLY reason this debate even EXISTS is because they're both being made into what are expected to be blockbuster films. Personally, I think that if Mr. Tolkien were alive today, he would be appalled by the behavior of some of his fans (and if Ms. Rowling knew or cared, I'm sure she would be appalled as well). I could probably write a whole treatise on the stupidity of comparing these two series because their tone, atmosphere, characters, situations, and even settings are SO DIFFERENT... but it would just piss me off and probably end in cursing. I want to tell people arguing about it, from either side, to just SHUT THE HELL UP. I love both authors and both series, and am planning to see both sets of movies. Christ.

::beats you on the head with a Harry Potter book :\:: No, you're not, since I already had about 500 written before the thing began (since I am, like I said, going off material already written in Fatal) and I wrote more today. You'd better check yourself before you wreck yourself, woman =P (sorry, my brother loves that phrase)

It only says '1' because my WP doesn't have a word counter function. >P

Ah, Tengu does random weirdos picking up little children off the street so much better than me. And FAMIB has a nice new layout too :3

The Zim Halloween special was AWESOME XD Those monsters kicked ass. (yes, I know it was already shown on Friday, but I missed it :3;)

::worries about her mother, who is not home yet and who is not answering her cel phone x__x::

I feel sorry for parents that won't let their kids trick or treat for religious (or, even more idiotically, safety) reasons. I always try to respect people's religious convictions, but, number one, Halloween is, now, mostly just about going out and dressing up and having fun, and, most importantly, getting as much candy as you can possibly carry. Punishing children for your ignorance of what is actually NOT a satanic holiday is not only stupid, it's borderline cruel. It just pisses me off to see little kids forbidden from dressing up and going with all their other little friends because their parents are ignorant, religious sociopaths.

As for fear that there will be an increase of razor blades in the candy apples this year because of the terrorist attacks... umm..where the hell does that logic come from? Now, I can understand (somewhat) fears that we may be attacked on a broader scale while everyone is out gallavanting, but honestly--you can't let fear immobilize you.

Ah, we just had our first set of trick or treaters. We don't usually get a lot of visitors down my street because the houses are so far apart. My Dad put it like this last night--in another neighborhood, you could visit three houses in the time it takes to visit just one in this neighborhood (of course, in the neighborhood he was speaking of [my old one], the houses are REALLY close together--separated barely by fences, when there's a separation at all). Although I've always enjoyed trick or treating, I'm sitting it out this year.... because, 1, I don't really have a costume (I suppose I could pull on my glove and, coupled with this black pantsuit I'm wearing, call myself Janet Jackson, but..), and 2, trick or treating really isn't that fun if you're doing it alone. Especially when you're as old as myself; I would feel like a loser ringing people's doorbells unless I was with friends, because then we would all be losers together.^^;
(My friends are all bowling... and even if they weren't, it is a school night and, also, lots of people have essays to finish because they're doing early or scholarship applications for colleges)


Halloween really is one of my favorite holidays, though--I love the magic of it. It's like Christmas, but without the heart-rending depression (usually) and more candy. It's fun and spooky and neat. :3 Unfortunately, since it's not a federally recognized holiday (despite the fact that most all calendars mark it and most people, in general, celebrate it), we don't get the day off. >_>

It's also neat because tonight is a blue moon. How bad ass is that?

i wish this week did not exist.

or perhaps that i did not exist. -_-

You know, I was really apprehensive about AP English during English Honors III last year. I thought I would be surrounded by my intellectual betters and equals, and these people would all be much harder working and make much better grades than me. Turns out only the first part of that is true. XP Of course, many people are doing better than me (especially THIS marking period, no doubt), but I'm doing a LOT better than I thought I would.

Plus, it's a small class, and I know most of the people in there, and they're all intelligent (although a few of them are somewhat bothersome)...and they're all as lazy or lazier than me. One feels much less stupid going in unprepared when one knows that everyone else is just as unprepared as you. =P

I only have to be happy at school... At home I can be as sulky and depressed as I want... -_-

I've started to replay FFTactics, and do you know who Algus reminds me of? (wait for it...) .... Draco. Can't fathom why. XD

It's hard to re-read Dr. Faustus when your brother is playing Mambo No. 5 right next to you (I don't like this song because it reminds me of Omnes, whom I hate, but I must admit that does have kind of a catchy beat ._.).

Jaimie-J, I think that if you insinuated to the person that made this layout (that would be Kai) that she used a program other than Notepad (and of course a graphics program), then she would rip your spine out of your back and bash you over the head with it. Well, okay, she's not violent like that (that's me XD), but she would be displeased. XP;

Reason why Lyn Does Not like Winter #1227:

Cold cokes aren't as enjoyable when you're already freezing your ass off.

I think this has to got to be one of the slowest weekends in history... I really, really ought to be studying for the Faustus essay I have tomorrow and the Advanced Algebra & Trig test as well.. but I don't want to.. .__.

Next week is the MTAC... I'm a little apprehensive about it, not because I don't think it will be fun (in fact I'm sure it will be), I'm just worried about keeping people up with my breathing. Not only do I just simply breathe deep (weak lungs have I), but I have even more problems breathing when I'm sleeping in a place that's not my house (I don't know why; probably something to do with familiarity...). But we're only spending one night in the hotel, so I suppose it shouldn't be too unbearable.

I have to share a bed with someone, but I don't especially have a problem with that per se--I'm more worried about her being uncomfortable than me, because while I sleep in a nice sized bed, I only take up the room of a single (the other half is usually occupied by cats or stuff like books and pencils and notebooks and paper, since I do a lot of homework/reading/writing/drawing while in bed).

Well, my name's on the list... there's no turning back now. (I used my real name... ^_^;)